20.

2012-02-09T10:27:00.000+08:00

怎么连你也慢下来了...

原来, 远离家的感觉是这样的..
原来, 不能在家欢腾节庆是这样的..
原来, 能看见熟悉朋友的面孔是这样的..
原来, 能回到家里无拘无束的任性是这样的..
原来, 要学会长大须经历那么多的感觉是这样的..
原来, 去强迫自己不去懊恼不去思考的挣扎是这样的..
原来, 要去重新认识每一个人每一个环境的郁闷是这样的..
原来, 有那么多的原来啊...

原来, 相信一个人, 是需要时间的.
原来, 投靠一个人, 是需要运气的.
原来, 怀疑一个人, 是真的很累人.
原来, 不去想太多, 是那么荒谬的.
原来, 选择了沉默, 是那么不解的.
原来, 思考了一天, 是那么脆弱的.
原来, 怎么那么多的原来啊...

原来听着'煎熬', 每一分, 每一秒, 真的觉得好'煎熬'...

原来, 自个儿到海边散步, 真的很畅快.
原来, 和你到海边去漫步, 真的很心安.
原来, 我真的不知道想要的, 是什么.

原来望着大海, 真的能什么也都不想,
那几分钟的放空, 是如此的平静舒坦.
原来走在沙滩, 真的能什么也都不想,
那几分钟的漫步, 是如此的安逸缓慢.

原来...
原来...
原来...
原来...
但,
我是什么?

The day.

2011-11-23T00:27:00.003+08:00

I used to blog really really long, and now, I don't know if I could still do that. Blogging always seems to be the best way to express what the inner side is feeling but it just doesn't do that tricky magic anymore. Even if sometimes, there are so many things I wish I could have spilled them all out, here, and as usual, I just end up typing out something ridiculous which I don't plan or intend to blog about. I can hardly describe what I'm feeling in words now, especially in Chinese words or phrases which is the one thing in my whole life, at least until now, I used to be kind of proud of myself. I know I wasn't that good, but that was the one thing, that one thing I could actually be slightly better than the others. I can't really play musical instrument well although I was once the freaking vice chairman of Chinese Orchestra. I can't sing the hell out, and obviously, I'm not the holy awesome Picasso that drew his ass out. What I know is just eating, sleeping, watching dramas and movies, spending the money and well, nothing else. I guess what I have contributed the most in my life is supporting the tiny part of the whole-lot of economy activities going through in this country. And, not to forget, complaining about this and that when there are actually thousands of millions of people who can barely afford the life I have, wish to have a life, like I do, neither being rich nor being able to do what they wanted to do, (FYI: I'm not rich, I'm just living in an average family, and please understand, I don't really do or get what I want) they just pray so they could fill up their empty stomachs, stop suffering deaths from famine. It's not that I will change in just one day but I'm just doing a self-reminder, to study harder when I start my course, to try harder everytime when I think of giving up something. I shouldn't take everything for granted, what I ought to understand.

You certainly know what life means when people hardly realise the existence of yours. You know what it all says when the person you think you have cared so much for doesn't really feel the way like you do. I never have asked for or thought of that wishful pipe dream, not being treated exactly the same way, but truth hurts when there's not even a quarter of it. So why the fuck you wanted to be there? And why the hell you happened to show up in front of me and later on treated me like a foolish clown? I have been such an idiot, being so stupid having that happy-going naive idea that perhaps I was fine, at least, I was something else. But you will not know anything about me, or try to know, and I don't know any of the your things either, not anymore. I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not good enough to be your good.

There isn't anything wrong, just maybe I'm being over anxiety or too concious recently. Going to work every weekdays, contacting with the study agent, the parents, the accommondation, the visa application, bascially everything that is going on, are just too tiring to handle in such a short sum of time, as I need to wait, and wait... and wait while it's being processed. Everything will be fine soon, like what people always tell some other people. Nobody really cares whether you are good or otherwise, when they ask if you're being okay. But not me, not when I ask sincerely.

I'm always myself, forever and always. Just not too much of this side. You know, when everything cramps together, when thing doesn't turn our that way, when things... don't seem any more delightful and bright, like what you have been thinking. There's nothing wrong being this way, once in a while, I guess...

It's raining, raining again...

无.

2011-10-24T20:42:00.000+08:00

你也何曾为谁留守过那一次的时辰

可以静静的等可以默默的问
可以慢慢的说可以苦苦的求
可以一个微笑忘却二十四小时的泪水
可以一句安慰压抑二十四小时的心慌
可以无怨可以无悔
可以细心的聆听可以耐心的问候
什么可以什么不可以

说不完的谎言越说越酸
愈来愈乱渐渐遗忘
直至
天马行空的迷惘
不晓得是现实或梦幻的节章

因为没有愿意不服输
所以还是要让它结束

我还是可以迷糊

成长.

2011-10-04T23:39:00.002+08:00

虽然, 一直都很不希望长大,
但也慢慢的, 不抗拒了,
究竟也没有谁能穿越时光的界限, 永垂不朽的活着.
最多, 也只是会成为被大家追悼的名字,
像在历史课本内那一叠叠的名人, 诗赋画作,
也仅仅是形式上的活着.

总觉得, 渐渐地长大, 离开小时候的白日梦, 越来越远.
当然, 小时候总是想个乱七八糟的,
但那七零八落的片段, 却是多么地扣人心弦.
只能回味的记忆, 偶尔细心咀嚼,
总会发现另一面的绚丽色彩.

至今, 也许还会沉溺于故事里的情节,
甚至会因此感到兴致勃勃, 热血,
但无可置疑的,
文字或戏剧内的故事,
永远是被期待的故事.

-

因为, 不论什么时候, 都有那么一双手,

不管岁月如何摧残着那柔滑的肌肤,

紧紧地握着你.

仿佛冬季里的暖流,

深深的扣住你的心.

的确, 时间越长,

越发现自己一些曾经所认为的, 是有多么的滑稽.

有时侯在朋友前自吹自擂一些事与人违的笑话,

也只是, 说说笑笑罢了.

因为缺乏自信, 所以才一直依赖镜子.

因为缺乏勇气, 所以不随然坦坦荡荡.

因为不让自己被发现缺乏自信,

所以字字句句都尽力让人窒息.

有时侯, 也不了解自己了.

人前, 人后, 人之间,

那个不同的外壳.

唯一不曾改变的是,

我依然, 向往到海边, 轻松的漫步...

也应该没有什么, 比蓝天白云,
来得更美丽.

-

不过, 下次你看到我,
还是那个幼稚的我. :)
在熟悉的人面前,
总无法放开最快乐的一面.

憧憬.

2011-09-02T00:44:00.000+08:00

只是一个想很多的小男生,
看着一封信, 一些照片,
究竟, 是多么的不舍得, 这么多的一切?
好多好多的人, 都出国读书了.
好多好多的人, 都即将要出国读书了.
是一直以来都不敢想象的,
因为始终不知道一切会变得怎样.

只是一个想很多的小男孩,
还依稀记得那感觉.
因为分离,
所以更害怕分离.
因为守不住,
所以更害怕拥有.
却矛盾的希望拥有,
所以究竟也会分离, 也会有抓不住的时候.

难道是无法预知未来, 所以才会胆怯?
一些人选择了相信, 一些人选择了逃避.
相信, 不管未来是什么, 一切都会美好的.
逃避, 不敢去想, 不敢去探讨.

偶尔会埋怨没有读高三,
并不是因为统考.
我其实并没有很在乎我比起大家, 迟了一点上大学,
完成我的大学课程.
反而是是因为离开后的我, 无法跟上大家的步伐.
少了一起奋斗的时间, 少了一起相处的时光,
少了那下课一起到食堂的时刻,
那对我而言在漫漫的上课时间中最快乐的时刻,
就是少了些什么.
明明知道不管怎样, 时间都不可能会停留,
即使那短暂的一年到最后也可能改变不了什么,
但是,
也就是少了那么的一年,
彼此的距离, 也还是渐渐的, 不同了.
因为,
大家总会有新的朋友,
总要接触新的环境,
总要了解新的事物.

总希望能抓住些什么,
却也不晓得,
能住抓住些什么.
或许, 总有一天能彻底的醒过来.
这个时刻, 依然无法探讨那谁也不晓得的未来.

想念那些在国外, 或是即将离开的朋友们.
一切安好.

自己的一些话.

2011-08-23T00:34:00.000+08:00

有时候, 一些歌曲, 一些人物, 一些事情..
总能把自己牵入好久不曾遇见的自己.

当感觉无法从口说出的时候,
当眼泪无法涌出的时候,
那种一直压抑的窘境..

对不起,
我真的很没有用.
除了能讲一些有的没的,
我就什么也做不到.

决定.

2011-08-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

考完A Level的最后一个测试后, 还真是过了一段漫长的日子.
当然, 我也没有完全闲着,
完成了两个星期的床褥展,
还有为期三天的, 为BOH做电话市场调查.
但其实, 生活也并没有很忙碌, 知道成绩要出的那前几天,
才动起身体, 去更了解一些理想大学的资料.
其实, 如果HELP或是Taylor's的学校是在Kampar UTAR的地方的话,
我就一定会到那里的.
比较希望享受一些比较淳朴的大学生活, 可是并不想去UTAR.
也许会觉得我很奇怪吧? 但, 我是这样想着的.
本来还斟酌着到底要不要去HELP, 反正也好象很多朋友在那里,
至少不会觉得迷茫, 还是什么的.
可是我就是期待比较有大学生活的学校,
所以也想了很久...

我的决定?
如果有兴趣要知道的, 就来问我吧. :)
但其实,
我真的不知道, 这个决定是对的, 还是错的.
我依然很疑惑, 有点不知所措.
有谁可以为我解答?

大学, 你太烦了!

Singapore Trip ! - In July 2011

2011-08-09T00:07:00.000+08:00

I wasn't planning to blog about it at first, just I was too lazy to pick a few photos from my album, which has around six hundreds photos ( I haven't included those in my phone, oh well, you are right, I still haven't synced them to my laptop! Can you imagine how lazy I am being recently? ) and upload them.

It was a fun and memorable trip, I would say. I'm simply in love with the environment there! You can see trees planting around in each small towns ( most of them, at least places I visited are like this ). It's just a small island, and you know, you can see green colour plants anywhere in the middle of the city! Maybe we do have it in Malaysia, but in Singapore, they seem like more well-planned (systematically?) on what they are building. So far, people from there give me really good image, I mean, they aren't mean, rude or whatever bad images I've heard before.Well, maybe because I'm not living there for a long period.

Let the pictures speak for what I've experienced!

First Day.

In the plane, luckily I got the window seat. Perfect sunshine :)

You will need this, super convenient while taking bus or trains.

You can buy stuff from 7-11 also.

Bugis Street. It's like kotaraya in KL, but there are less foreign workers.

You will know what I'm trying to say when you actually went to Kotaraya during weekends.

Raffles City. There are so many shopping malls there!

On the way walking to Merlion Park.

Merlion - Symbol of the city.

One of the places I like the most, Marina Barrage.

It's the place where the kites fly =) A surprisingly unique place, and You'd love it like I do.

Hehe, I'm lazy to rotate the photo, so.. here is Marina Bay Sand!

Marina Mall? ( I can't really remember the name) All luxury items.

Chanel, LV, Gucci, Burberry....

Night view of the Merlion Park.

We went there at night again, to take the river boarding :)

Sitting in the boat, enjoying the windy night and beautiful scenery.

Second Day:

Universal Studio !!!

DA BEST GAME!

I'm not going to make everythings so detailed. Haha.

I was all wet after playing after playing for the whole day.

Taking photo with BigHead makes me look so small in size. =D

Dinner at Clarke Quay, by the river side (If I did spell it correctly)

People around me were all MatSalleh! Hahaha!

3rd day:

I actually went to China Town and Little India before going to Orchard but,

I'm just showing two photos here taken from Orchard Road.

There are so many malls here, and I bought a bag for myself :D Yeah!

At night, we went to Night Safari. Not that worth, S$30 but didn't really enjoy much.

Last Day:

Science Centre.

Wall-E !

There are more photos in my camera, however, I don't feel like making this a really long post as this happened in the past month. Geez.

Just to let you know, Singapore is so cool ! Haha, oh well, if you can get free accomodation. :)

Thanks my aunty alot, I know I'm being really troublesome. Kindness appreciated.

Simply done here, stay tuned for my next post. Hopefully it ain't gonna be an emo one. =)

只是个, 宁静的晚上.

2011-07-02T00:37:00.000+08:00

重复着的轻柔旋律,
缠绕着思维的层层映像,
那么的实在,
却又如此的遥远.
只是少了你温柔寒喧,
那荒唐却又深刻烙印的感觉,
似时间不曾飞逝,
被困于无形的枷锁,
无影, 却也无处可躲.

不晓得那个夜晚,
你是否也会像我想你般想我?
不晓得那个晴天,
是否我也会像你对我般冷静?
还是说彼此没有交集,
总是错过那一次又一次的相遇?

只是个, 宁静的晚上,
却承载不平静的心情.

播放着那熟悉的歌曲,
原来,
晚了,
累了,
迟了,
不可能的,
也该走了.

A Levels - DONE !

2011-06-11T19:35:00.000+08:00

FINALLY, I've COMPLETED my A Levels ! Woohoo!
Well, it should be only 'almost-completed' as I still have to wait for another two months, for you-know-what to release. Those exams days were torturing enough for me to survive. I've never felt this way before, I mean, I used to treat exams just like normal stuff, nothing much special and I won't be dying for exams. But A Levels is really freaking my mind out! I swear, someday in future, I'm so gonna let my kids to take A Levels, if it still exists and the world doesn't end. Okay, this doesn't make any sense.

Anyway, I've to thank those hardworking insane people in my college, which made me staying back in college to study. Can you imagine, those hardworking people studying everyday, and yet, saying that they're not hardworking enough for exams? I'm like the laziest people ever in the world when comes to study for exams. It's so stressed to have so many diligent and smart friends when you're not smart enough to be smart with them. :)

-
To continue some of the people I'd love to thank from my last 'lifeless people' posts.

Wan Yee: Without her, I'd surely be dying in the first week of college. She's like the only person I knew that time. Going to TARC was an involuntary action as I was forced by my dearest parents. We have BEEN through ALOT during the college days, from friends, slowly to 'couple', then upgraded to 'married' and finally 'divorced'. Thanks to those nothing-better-to-do classmates. Haha. Imagine a bunch of people waiting outside the hall, then when Wan Yee walked out, they said 'Dai Sou' loudly, that was so embarrassing! Haha! People don't really understand why she's so close to me as I'm in the art stream, and she's the science stream student. She was my classmates from form 1 to form 3.

Rayco: Another Chong Hwa fellow. :) I've heard of her name before, when I was in secondary school. But I didn't know her. She was the chairman of Wind Band, and I was the vice-chairman of Chinese Orchestra. We're both in the musical society, but we didn't know each other. So close, but so far apart. LOL. Anyway, it's glad to know her! She is really cisin, opps sorry, I mean, very cisin. Although she has been acting abnormally crazy, she is really a nice person to talk to. Hope her dreams can really come true =) She's been doing real hard for what she wanted to achieve. #prayhard

Sheng Yuan: Well, he's really a nice person, when he isn't mad or angry. Haha! A guy who can really talk, and talk, and talk non-stop when comes to insult people. He's like those kind of people who can do anything, anything is like, that time in Canteen 2, Rayco said there's a guy looking quite good, then when the guy passed by, he just talked to the guy and said Rayco wanted to know him. That's been our jokes to Rayco for quite a while. Thanks him for fetching me home sometimes. He also can crack jokes and make people laughing like mad. Another I-am-glad-to-meet person :)

Alvin: Hehe, another person that I always tumpang his car to LRT. He's kind, as he claimed he is, and a person who can really crap. Sometimes, he can just pop out something that make everyone LOL in reply to people's words. It's happy to study with him, I mean, the atmosphere is so relaxing but still efficient when studying with him. I don't know why, but studying with him is like playing for the whole day, but I was really studying you know. Haha. Like studying with Gab is really efficient, but quite stressed somehow. But with him, I'd feel that why time passes so fast? ~~Haha, sorry Gab~~ :P I have been troubling him during AS and A2 exams. Really thanks thanks thanks alot! I didn't give him chocolate cause he wasn't there that day when I was giving to people who have fetched me before. But I don't think he will take it. Grateful to know him, and get close, not that close, but quite close, with him. :) Oh yea, not to mention, He loves Egg Tart! WAHAHAHAHA.

I'm so gonna miss these people. One and the half year, I never thought the memories will be this good, I never expect my college life to be like this. Thanks to everyone who has been making my days better and happier. BIG HEART!
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Will make a longer post next time. Today has been a busy day. :) Went to midvalley with mom and her friend in the morning, back around 5pm. Then later at night, going to midvalley again with mom and dad. :) Need to enjoy my life to the max before I get my job.

Oh yea, time to decide where to go, what to study after this. NOOOOOOOO.

Love All The Nice People I Have Known. :]
Love All The People Who Used To Lighten My Days.
Thank you so much for being nice to me, I know I'm not a good person, maybe not a good friend, but, thank everyone who has tried to be nice to me. :)
And, thank you Haters for making me stronger! Well, I don't know if there's someone dislikes me in class, but, still thank you! Wahaha.

I'mabouttolosemymind.

深-处

2011-05-21T23:13:00.001+08:00

倘若你曾试着了解, 那结果, 是否会截然不同?
-

有好长的一段时间, 忘记了时间的存在.

他, 努力的去保存好,
细心呵护, 丝毫都不怠慢.
天晴, 或天灰,
他, 依然守护着, 默默相信着.
他, 有好长的一段时间,
忘记了时间的存在.
但, 任凭他如何尽心尽力,
原来过了有效期, 还是, 要丢弃了.
爱情, 友情, 有有效期吗?
若有, 会维持多久?
若无, 为什么要丢弃了呢?

短暂的逃离了现实, 忘记了现实的残酷.

他     : 我的心, 碎了.
天使 : 让我来帮你, 好吗?

他     : 我的心, 碎了.
天使 : 让我来看看, 好吗?

他     : 我的心, 碎了.
天使 : 你相信天使, 好吗?

他, 相信了天使.
他的心, 碎了.

寻找到了某个角落着地, 羡慕花儿总能对人欢笑, 背人愁.

角落的小草 : 花儿, 你好漂亮.
漂亮的花儿 : 谢谢.

小草, 历经风雨,
寻找到了某个角落着地,
羡慕花儿总能对人欢笑, 背人愁.

小草总是不明白, 花儿为何如此美丽.
但小草,
还是宁愿呆在角落, 自由自在.

围墙好高, 被守住的门口, 进不去.

围墙好高, 都进不去了.
该怎么办呢?
门被守住了, 进不去了.
该怎么办呢?
却也没有人发现,
高而坚固的围墙,
旁边, 却有一扇摆放着阶梯的窗.
门口堵住了,
又有谁,
曾细心留意过, 那开启的窗?
又有谁,
曾尝试过, 注意过, 留心过?

别过来了, 碰不着彼此的界线.

站在彼此的对岸, 太阳很猛烈.

他 : 我看不着你.
谁 : 我看见了你.

他 : 过来, 好吗?
谁 : 算了, 好吗?

他 : 这样, 好吗?
谁 : 就这样, 好吗?

究竟是什么? 原来没有永远的黑白.

看不清楚是什么,
神圣的天使吗?
邪恶的恶魔吗?
究竟是什么?
都不重要了.
它说,
没有永远的黑白.
没有都只是黑白.
黑白之间,
原来存在的模糊的界限.
黑, 也有深黑, 浅黑, 浓黑, 淡黑.
白, 也有蓝白, 红百, 青白, 灰白.

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倘若你曾试着改变结果, 结果, 是否依然是那个结果?

- - -

没有好的画画技术, 加了点效果,
只是, 简单地, 写过了.

这, 是考前的最后一篇吗?
不懂, 也不说了.

考前, 最后一篇.

2011-05-17T00:47:00.000+08:00

原本今天是打算要早点上床睡觉的,
真的有必须为明天充电.
后天要考试了, 学院最后一个也是最重要的考试.
以后吃饭吃面, 都靠它了... 也没那么夸张啦.
总而言之, 那是个很重要的考试就对了.
不晓得怎么了, 上到学院过后,
考试前的压力都很大, 很紧崩, 失控边缘.
可能是, 就算自己有去读了, 尝试去读了, 也考不好吧?
那像以前一样, 不用怎样读的, 只要考试前一天发奋, 成绩也勉强可以.
当然.. 我不喜欢的科目除外.
那习惯真的不好吧? 弄得我现在神经兮兮的.
但是记得以前接近考试的时候, 在学校总会有一班朋友,
可能也没有一大班, 也就那么几个, 然而几个对我来说已经足够了..
会陪我一直吹水, 吹到东南西北.
还有一个簿记的特别老师, 总会被我叫她做笔记然后在进考场前讲解给我听..

肥婆慧(簿记肥小老师)~ 没有想过你的大名会出现在这里吧?

...总觉得自己以前的照片比较好看 -.- 放小个一点比较好..

不懂是谁的人..

看全世界只有你会陪我废话废到要睡觉吧?

每次心情不好的事情, 只要跟你聊天,

一定都会变得很好很好的.

是你变了~ 是你变了~

想下想下... 以前的我也太堕落了吧?
但是, 却好怀念以前考试的时候..
那不把考试看重的自己..
那种能释怀自己的自己..
可惜高二后, 就离开了.
没有经历统考, 没有的和他们奋斗, 没有的像以前这样了.
虽然没有后悔自己的选择, 但是,
毕竟在最艰辛的一年, 无法一起度过..
不喜欢现在的距离.
不喜欢现在的问候.
嗯,
我又想太多了..

总是觉得最近的情绪怪复杂的, 抑或每次考前那毛病又会重犯?
可是,
有时候我是真的觉得很.. 怎么说呢?
很.. 乏力, 和失望?
可能是我不习惯面对这样的对话吧.
我不喜欢烦到还是打扰到人家,
所以忙的时候, 我宁可你讲一句很忙, 好过一些没有意义的回复.
我不会随便敷衍人, 即我认为好的朋友内, 我都不会这样,
所以我也不喜欢人家敷衍我.
~~但是, 被敷衍, 也还好, 因为我脸皮厚.~~
嗯,
应该是我讲话没有重点..

~~但是, 这样我就自己很犯贱了.~~
~~有时候, 也不大分得清, 一些话,~~
~~究竟是认真的, 还是玩笑的.~~
~~但是谁有知道我真的很在意?~~
~~可是...~~
~~还是, 算了.~~
~~只是想不到, 第一次被人家给那个反应,~~
~~对我讲的人竟然是我从没有想过会是那个人的人.~~
~~好的东西, 我从来都不介意写是谁, 是什么人.~~
~~但是不喜欢的东西, 还是模糊带过就好.~~

负面情绪, 请走开吧.
我要奋斗了.
我不要想不开心的事情了.
我不要这样子了.
我不要考前忧虑症.
其实,
也没有什么啦.

珍惜, 拥有的美好.
有多少人, 连看一眼这个世界的机会都没有..
有多少人, 连呼吸都无法靠自个儿完成..
有多少人, 连生命都无法体会..
我还抱怨些什么呢?

祝所有人,
考试顺利! 加油!

-只是没有重点的一篇.

深夜...

2011-05-13T01:16:00.000+08:00

依希感觉到些什么轻轻划过脸颊,
又是个如何的夜晚.

嗯, 真的没什么, 是这样说着的.
嗯, 真的没想多, 是那样认为的.
嗯, 真的知道了, 是如此明确的.

沉溺于现实的恶梦,
嗯,
没有值得, 没有不值得.
也别管, 在乎, 或不在乎.

深夜...

Lifeless People.

2011-05-02T22:26:00.003+08:00

College life is certainly out of what I've expected at the very first place. I used to hate it, dislike it, complain about it, though I'm still complaining right now, but just not like how it used to be. I'm so gonna miss the days I've spent with those people, and also, the time we gossiped about others. Somehow I'm curious about if I've ever been one of the gossip topic before? Haha, do let me know if you talk something bad about me okay? I don't really mind if it's true. I accept the bad side of me, when it comes to the truth.

Okay, back to the topic, I procastinate much as I don't know how I should start with the post, and also, I don't know if I should blog in English or Chinese. I'm definitely better in expressing myself in Chinese, but some of the people don't read Chinese blog. So, I'mma just mix and blend both languages together for some parts. Haha!

For the arrangement of who I talk about first or later, is actually randomly picked. So, the first one doesn't mean the most important, and last one doesn't mean nothing or less important :) All are the same, and equally treated :) Hehe!

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The person I'd like to talk about first is... Jun Yen! Why him? Although I dislike him much ( just kidding! ), he's the first person I came close in college.

He might have a dumb face, but literally, he's one of the smart people in the class. Likes to tease people and telling lame jokes. He was in maths class and I was in Law class in the first sem. I get to know him is because of Jeremy who I knew during the orientation day. We sat together during Lecture classes in DK hall, and sooner, started to communicate with him more when I knew he's taking LRT to go home also. He's a good friend, I guess? But not when it comes to money! The most stingy guy I've known for now, as I've known one before, but he has changed. So, Jun Yen tops the position of being stingy in my ranking now! Haha.

My first impression towards him is, a quiet and smart person. I was right! well, at least half of it is correct. Smart but definitely not the silence type. Once he talks, I feel like stuff-ing an apple into his mouth so he'd stop all the lame jokes. Quoted from LXL " nothing good comes from his mouth " :)

His nickname, Yong Sui (样衰) He knows how to speak Chinese.

But he just rejected my request at the first time when i asked him to talk to me in Mandarin!

really yong sui!

Maybe he couldn't remember, but I still have some scences clearly appearing in my mind. I was taking Law at first, then I dropped Law, and changed to Maths, though at last I dropped maths as well. okay, that's pointless. Anyway, when I first changed to Maths, I needa chase up for all the notes and tutorial works. I needa photocopy the notes and the workbook. And there, he's offered to borrow me photostating the tutorial book before I could ask him! I really apprecited the offer. Haha!

Haha, his masterpiece!

However, sometimes, I was kinda mad at him, especially that time he didn't tell me he started to date PW. I didn't know about it until everyone noticed about that happened and they told me. I was like "wth", that made me feeling stupid as being a friend, and he even asked me to ask yenyen to see if that's true or what. I was kinda pissed that time, but everything is okay now. After all, he's not that important eversince I met Gab (hehe, kidding! :P )

Glad to know him, he's really a kind of good friend *pressing my heart really hard* and my college life would be dull and boring without him at the first place. Keep in touch and I know he won't read about this, so I can just type whatever I want :P wooohoo! Forgive me if I've done anything before that makes you feeling bad or what :) Thank you!
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After JY, sure I've to mention about Pei Wern! When I was in maths class, I didn't know much about her. She was like the coolest girl ever. I mean, you seldom see her laughing, when you're not close with her. I thought she was the smarty girl, yea I THOUGHT, not until I've known her, she has become the biggest laugher among the members! Haha!

She's my grandma in college, but she never gives me any angpau before. So everytime when she asks me to treat her, I'd ask her to gimme angpau :P She looks smart, yea, she's smart too, BUT you will never imagine how crazy she can be! She's the most random person I've never met until now. We are randomly suggesting something, then she'll anyhow say yes, and do it on the spot.

my grandma's blurry face, and she has another name too, which is BANANA! :D

She's a nice person of course, but I just can't understand her well. I often don't know if she's serious or just playing when comes to a situation when making decision. The truth is, she does bring us a lot of cheerful moments. I still can remember the night we all staying at SueJenn's house. Her crazy act was like the highlight of the night. It's hard to say it out here, but those who stayed over there would clearly know what had happened.

But what I know is, She Loves Me ! And this is the proof :P The love between grandma and grandson la!
No wonder we have communication gap, cause she's too old xD

Out of others, she's the one I couldn't get the most. I mean, I just know how to play with her, but when comes to chat or communicate, it would be slightly difficult :P she's too simple and yet complicated for me. Haha. But I feel proud to be in her life, I mean like, I'm able to join her after college for studying or even outing with her. There'll be tons of fun when she's around. :) Must remember me!

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Who else next? Hmm.. Kar Vern! Guess what? I didn't know she was my secondary schoolmate! I've never met her before, or maybe she's not outstanding enough for me to notice :p kidding!

She is a good girl, as you can see, the common good girl look :) She's hardworking, keen to study, and funny when it comes to the situation we bully her. I didn't really know her at first until I found out she's from chong hwa also! We're both in Art Stream and her class was just right beside my class! It was kinda ridiculous as in like I've never had a tiny lil impression about her when I was in secondary school. We get to know each other more when I found out we were taught by the same accounting teacher before, and we talked something bad about the teacher during the first sem in Mr Yeoh's accounting tutorial class!

We communicate in Mandarian all of the time, since we're both from chonghwa. I kinda like to talk to her, I mean like, talking to her is good and fun :) whenever you fight back or argue back and she has nothing more to say, she'll say "suan liao( 算了) suan liao! " Haha! and I like to see the expression from her face!

还是觉得用华文来讲比较适合. 很开心能认识你, 因为在这之前, 我真的觉得学院很没有归属感, 因为大部分的人都讲英文, 然后我英文又不好. 然后刚开始到学院, 跟全部不是很熟, 你是第一个跟我讲华文比较多的学院朋友. :D

哈哈, 不好意思啊, 这个很经典咯!

虽然是一个乖女孩, 可是一样改不了38的性格. 哈哈! 所以, 她也称为38.

刚开始并没有和她很熟, 只是后来我没有拿law和maths的时候, 才开始跟她接触比较多. 虽然我总知道她一直都在怪我做她和aaron的灯泡. 是一个不错好聊的朋友, 可以讲废话的朋友. 超级喜欢gap zai, 但是她的白马还没有跟她讲过话之前, 就跟我讲话了! 哈哈! 她喜欢我也很喜欢的国家, 纽西兰. 还有一直强调以后要嫁外国人, 最好是到纽西兰, 然后以后她要让她的孩子做牧童. 每次听到她这样讲, 都忍不住大笑, 然后踩多几脚.

是一个很不错的朋友, 印象中她也是那种玩起来疯狂, 一读就认真到可以吓死人的认真. 对她有兴趣吗? 目前单身. 有兴趣的话我可以介绍一下, 不过前提是你要好看啦, 现在的女生都很挑剔.
很开心能认识一个能和我聊会中学事情的朋友, 因为我们总有一些共同的话题别人是无法了解的. 而且我们也有有联系的朋友, 所以有时侯就会聊一下朋友和学校发生的事情. 以后要保持联络, 然后结婚的时候如果在外国的, 记得请我! :)
感谢你! 若我曾做过什么让你不开心的事情, 请多多包涵, 当然不包括一起欺负的啦. :P
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Okay the next person I'm gonna talk about is Aaron Kong! 江伟华! I know he prefers me calling his Chinese name! I get to know him more also because of dropping law and maths. We always spend the leisure time together either in canteen or the park. And I'm the lightbulb between him and Kar Vern.

还没有跟他混熟的时候, 他真的是一个很静, 很静的人. 有段时间曾经想认识他一下, 但是热情的我被他的冷漠给浇熄了. 还好, 他最后发现我真的很平易近人, 和蔼可亲, 才慢慢熟起来! 说起来, 他也是一个很38的!而且假得要死. :P 他是一个很好的人, 真的是那种好到, 不管什么事情, 只要他能做到的, 你一叫他帮忙, 就绝对会帮你做到. 欣赏他这个性格!

虽然有时侯跟他聊天他会给我一个看不起我的眼神,(我懂他看到这个后一定又会shoot我!)但是有时侯跟他讲话, 真的是笑死我. 加上他的动作和语气, 真的是很搞笑的说, 认识他是学院生活的乐趣之一. 谢谢他总是被我麻烦(每次讲麻烦他的时候, 他都会讲我38的38!), 放学后载我到Bukit Jalil LRT Station. 我会怀念每次他载我的时候, 跟他聊天的情况. 哈哈! 而且每次讲到港剧, 我就要把戏名和演员的名字翻译到华文, 也是我认识他后的一个值得记住的部分.

38到吃火锅都要穿两讲衣服的38! :D

他应该是一个我跟他聊天聊蛮多的, 可是却也不是很了解的人. 总觉得他有神秘的一面, 但是却不想让我们知道的. 不过, 我知道他是一个大好人, 而且是一个值得交的朋友.
一定要保持联络!然后, 有机会记得邀请我们去你的家玩! Sarawak的那个啊!
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Now, here comes the QKI TAN MEI CHI! She is the most perasan girl I've ever seen in my life! I guess some of my secondary school friends actually know her existence as everytime they will say "现在厉害了啦, 跟TARC的Mei Chi一起了". Haha, I was kinda boom-ed whenever they told me this last time.

This is where our first date started! ROFLMAO. :) Just kidding!

No doubt, she's really friendly ~~and loving in me~~! Haha, I remember is her who came to know me first, before I started to know her. Is that right? I guess so, because what I can recall is, she was kinda freaking me out the first time when we're like offically meeting/ talking with each other or something like that. I mean like, not that she's scary, she's just too perasan that I couldn't swallow it at the first place, but now, we do perasan together :P and camwhore of course!

She had a long hair when she first entered college which I think she absolutely looks better with her current mid-long hair. She's a special girl, with an attitude which is quite different from the others. She is a girl who will do all the crazy stuff with you, playing around and also, when comes to study, she will change back to a serious person that I don't even dare to disturb her while she's studying :P

She does look funny all the time when she makes out the silly expression :P

Frankly, I think she's kinda outstanding and it's like everyone will follow what she wanna do. She drives an Atos which I jealous much cause I was begging my dad to get me one that time when I just got my driving license. Haha! She's kind of girl whom she will express whatever she feels and thinks, which I impress much, and something that I've never told her before, she is the only person who gave me a kinda close feeling. The close feeling is like the feeling that you've known this person before, maybe like my secondary school friend. Blah, I don't know what I'm saying. 就是, 有种很熟悉的感觉, 就好象中学的朋友一样. I guess I did write better in Chinese -.-

She said I'm good looking on my shirt :P haha!

And there's one more thing about her.. which is.... I like her blog very very much! She definitely has a great sense of humour, and good in expressing herself. :) I love the way she writes her blog, the way she posts and also, the laughters she mentions in her blog. I'm a big fan of her bloggy, but, I'm not a stalker :P just being supportive. Cause not many of my friends like blogging nowadays, and her blog (not her xD) is attractive somehow. You'll be glad when you're mentioned in her blog ( of course, not the scolding part, and she said I was cute before in her blog :P - WHICH I think she's gonna fight back when she sees this ) and you'll definitely LOL to how she writes or whatever !

I'm happy to know her, and hang out with her, and of course with whoever from the gang. Hope we can keep in touch and I'll stay tune for your blog, as always. (Again, I'm not a stalker! :D)

The next person I'm gonna blog is about is Donkey XINLEI! Yesh! Donkey Lei! I wasn't so close to her at first, cause she's like the kind of person who really kept a low profile. But once you know her, she's definitely not what you thought like. I know her or should I say starting to notice her is because of the AhSoo's incident :) Haha!

See, the donkey Lei! She's the kind of person who always thinks that she herself isn't good enough, or not good if compared to others which I do not agree to what she thinks about herself. Everyone is different okay! She's a nice person, and easy to play with, provided when she's not emo or facing some deep down situation. Haha! When she's emo, she's kinda scary with we aren't dare to talk with her as she'll shoot us back real fast though she's one of the DC queens.

Started to know her more when I join the gang. And getting know more when we were actaully public transports kaki, which means we all have to to take LRT and bus to college. She is also kinda perasan which she denies and says that she's just telling truth. She's the girl who always get bullied in our group. Not that kind of real bully I mean, just we will tease or play with her.

this is her before her newest hairstyle. She looks better with the current hairstyle though.

We like to copy her words, for no reason. It's just fun to play with, hope she won't mind as we're mostly kidding. Don't take everything so serious okay? :) This is our way to communicate what, so chillax and enjoy the moments. Nevertheless, she's really a good girl, good in that sense that, she has to ask her parents' permission before she doing everything. Went to her house BBQ once and I found it funny when I see the way she communicates with her bro and sis!

Nevertheless, please don't be emo so often okay! I mean, if that's not emo but tired, please rest earlier next time :) we wish to see the happy go lucky you more than the emo side of you which is kinda scary sometimes. But to be honest, you're really a good friend to talk to, and nice to be with. Hope you can get what you wanna do in the future and don't let the bad people defeat you! Prove to them you're better :) Hehe! Keep in touch, my Twitter Friend! ( I mentioned it as you wish! )

a Boss who is not Bossy but always get Bullied :P I didn't know she's that fun to chat with when I first knew her. I mean like, I joined the group first before being part of the lifeless one. And she gave me an impression of a brilliant and strict person. She does look fierce when she doesn't smile or what. But the truth is, she won't get angry easily and nice to communicate with. My boss, SUEJENN!

Aww, I know she's desperate to eat my taufu, you see her hand :P haha! just kidding. To be honest, she's really a very nice and kind person that I think I'd feel that myself is so rude when staying beside her. She used to have a very good image, not until she joined us, her reputation has gone far since then. She said she's never seen people like us, talking loud, laughing loud and doing crazy stuff before. Means that we're kinda like aliens to her! HAHA!

She is really cute. I mean real cute, when you prank on her, her response is definitely what the reason we wanna prank her! Aww, I feel bad of typing this out but that's true. You know, I don't like to hide the truth, cause she's really nice to play with and easy going with people. I thought she was the cool girl at first when I saw her in college, but now, she's my boss! Haha!

she really looks cute in this photo! anyone interested ?
she never has a boyfriend before :P oops, sorry for saying it out !

Why I'd call her a boss? Because.. she has a driver, she is rich ( can see from her appearance right?!), she's nice and she is .. the BOSS! I like calling her boss, but that means she's bossy okay? She is one of the DC queens. PW, XL and her are always fighting for the top crown of being DC, DC stands for disconnceted. Haha, people know here will know why she has that name :)

She's a really helpful person as she has a terribly good temper! She won't get mad easily, but she cries a lot I guess? Wish to know her more someday! Must keep in touch kay? I'll miss her dc-ness! :D

Who else I left out? :) Hmm... how can I forget him? The last one, and the most important one, the one I will miss the most, Gabriel Wonggggg ! Haha! I wasn't so close with him at first, cause he's too, how to say, extraordinary. I mean, who would stand up and speak alot in the first day in front of hundreds of people? Is him ! Haha, I'm so gonna miss him after college.

he really looks cute, doesn't he? haha!

He's like a person who talk alot, play alot, but still when comes to study, everything will be just fine. He likes playing game, too bad I don't really like, if not I'd join him playing the games. He always carries his big bag with him, and that's one of his signature look :) and also, he likes sports.

What I'd say about him? I don't know, actually I don't know him much, just like to play with him. But one thing I know is, he's always willing to help. When you need something, you can ask from him, he'll try to help BUT not when i ask him to help me putting back the attendance book :P Haha! I wasn't so close to him before I was a Asistant Class Rep. Only I get the chance to know him more after that.

But what I can ensure is, when the college was ending, he's the one that really close to me. I mean, we go here and there together, sitting in the class together, or even "in a relationship" in facebook which is totally a prank :) but like what I stated in FB, let me know when you're gonna betray me okay? So I wouldn't be too sad. I feel great whenever I skype with him, because I love chatting in skype although sometimes I talk more than he talks in skype.

为什么你又懂我是你心中永远的男人? 你又懂我心想什么?
你不是应该要写"你是我心中永远的男人"? 就是指, 我在你心中, 是你永远的男人?

I really hope to know him more someday. Let's chat more in skype kay, when we are both free. And must stay connected. If you're going to UTAR, must let me know also. Haha! I really wish I could know him earlier, I mean becoming close with him earlier, so that I'd have more time to hang around with him. My friends kept asking me about me and him but everytime I'd just tell them "what you think?" Haha!

Back to the point, he's really a nice friend, at least for now, he's still nice. Haha! Wonder if he feels the same and hope that I'm not so annoying to him. I mean like, I'm always bothering him. Anyway, I will love him and miss him! Wahaha, don't get jealous people :P I love and miss everyone, just he's more.

Okay, I really wanna thank you! Thank you for everything and doing crazy stuff with me. And, I love taking photos with you ^^

These are the people I would like to thank and I appreciate them much :) There are still some people I'd love to thank, but maybe not now. I'm so gonna miss everyone of them. They made my days in college better, made everything went so right.

Do leave me comment okay? If you're free. If I've said anything not right, please do correct me. Glad to have you all being part of my life.

:) I'm so thrilled to have you all around. Let's do the best in A2 and I can't wait for the trip after A2. We are going to have a blast one, I guess?

GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF US. :D

Last Day (Few days) In College.

2011-04-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

I never thought that I'd end my college like this, in a good way of course, as well as getting another bunch of fantastically awesome and yet, crazy buddies in my life. I never knew that college life can actually be this fun and memorable, until I met them, so-called Lifeless Gang. I don't really know the exact members of the gang, but most likely are Gabriel, Qki, Kar Vern, Xin Lei, Jun Yen, Pei Wern, Aaron, SueJenn and Me, anyone else?

For you all to know, I hated my college when I first entered. Repeating it over and over again, I was forced to enroll in TARC by my parents, sincerely thanks to the advertisement in newspaper. TARC isn't that bad actually, again like what I've told my friends for like don't-know-how-many-thousands-times, just I was planning to go college with my friend, and everything was ruined when my parents found out that TARC tuition fee is really reasonable and affordable comparing to the others.

Despite the fact that A-Level is really tough and challenging and if I was given a 2nd chance I'd not want to take A Level anymore, I'm actually thankful enough as I'm able to meet some silly and crazy people here. :) I was once, hated the college terribly much, slowly after that, I changed my mind a lil and started to cope with it. At this point, it doesn't mean that I love my college now, just I love the people here! It's always feeling great when you've a bunch of awesome friends around, and playing silly stuff with you, doing stupid things and laughing everything out loud.

It made me so hard to believe that yesterday was actually the last day of college. Time flies. Speaking frank, I really wish I'd turn back time, have more time spending with the people. I might not be good in expressing myself, but I really appreciate every moments I spent with the Lifeless one. Yes, I'm talking about you, you and you. Of course, besides the Lifeless one, there are also some people I'd love to spend time with. :)

Hereby to share some of the activities I've done during college days. For the last sem, we had our picnic day either every thursday or wednesday. Normally we're just bringing some snacks and bread & jam, but for the very official last week of college, we've decided to make it into a special one.

Taadaa! We prepared lots of food for the last picnic.

Lifeless people!

I actually love this photo, I like the background! and He's Gabriel! Lol.

And we normally went for gym every wednesday, to keep fit! haha, just kidding.

Because of them, I'd love to spend more of my time in college. I'd stay back and join the fun. I'd cram in the train, just to stay a lil longer with them.

Before the college ended, we had a taking-photo plan. The plan was okay but we failed to go every single part of college as we took 2 hours to capture some photos just in CITC, one of the many buildings in TARC.

People passing by were actually thinking we're crazy :P

Can you imagine how lifeless we are?

from Left : Qki, Aaron, XinLei, Gab, KarVern, Me and YongSui (JunYen)

First time taking photo with shengyuan! Yeah! I wanted to take phot with Alvin also, too bad he didn't show up that day!

Nice ceiling :) This is the roof top of CITC building, lovely sky with lovely people.

After that, Law students going for Law class and we met Wan Yee there.

Took a photo :)

Danny, WanYee and DonkeY( xinlei)

Pondok @ Yam Yam Park (阴阴park - in cantonese)

Somewhere in the middle of trees :) Near to canteen 1.

I really like the background! The effect is so natural and makes me feeling comfortable.

The boss (SueJenn) and KarVern.

Me, and Gab.

After photo shooting there, we went to DK block ( which is our lecturer halls) to take photos. We wanted to go inside the halls actually. Too bad all the halls were either locked up or occupied by people.

You couldn't believe that we actually did silly stuffy :)

Running Effect suggested by Jenn.

Posing like models.

Sitting on the bench.

Well, these are just random places where I didn't know how to describe them. You'd know the places if you're a TARCian, which means TARC students.

These are probably what I did for the last few days during college. Went to Wangsa Walk with the gang, some of the people. Helped Qki to get her free Mac & Cheese and we're having a kinda short but enjoyable chatting session @ Popeye's. The conversation was simply amazing and hilarious. I just wish we could have more time chatting like this. Haha!

Next day, which is yesterday (29/4/11). We went to The Curve for Karaoke. Before heading to The Curve, we had our breakfast @ Village Park.

Some of them were sleepy but some were desperate to get into the photo :D

The total people went to Redbox.

We've taken lots of photos, and of course I've camwhored alot. I'm kinda lazy to upload the photos one by one here as this might kill me before I'm done uploading the photos. And also, I couldn't write out every single details of everything. After the karaoke session, Gab, Qki, KarVern, XinLei, PeiWern and I went to Kepong like what we have earlier planned. We went to Pasar Malam, bought our food, and went to Qki's house to enjoy the food. I was pleasantly surprised when Qki invited us to her house as she mentioned before that her family, including herself dislikes people visiting her house. Due to our delayed schedule, we're forced to stay over as it was already 10pm when we finished everything like eating, chit chatting, laughing.. bla bla bla. Gab went home, KV, PW, XL and I were staying there. That was a sudden decision. I wanted to go home at first, but I was too afraid to take KTM at night.

I was even more shocked when I was told that Qki had never had her friend staying in her house before. Really grateful to her and her family for allowing us to stay in her house. Thank you so much and please don't feel sorry! I should be the one who feels sorry for that.

Okay, I found that I'm pretty bad blogging in English. Moreover, I'm actually typing this in exhaustion and confusing mood, as my parents and brothers kept asking me to do this and that. Ahh, I really wish the time can just stop here, so we could have more time to know one another more.

Must keep in touch kay? Really feeling honoured to know you guys. Hopefully I can complete another post tomorrow, which supposed to be a post dedicating to some of the people, of course, members of lifeless gang.

I'm so gonna miss the time we spent together, laughing together. May all of us achieving what we want in the future.

Love, and Peace.

逝言.

2011-04-26T14:14:00.002+08:00

倘若说, 曾经拥有过所认为的美好,
是否, 以后都无法寻获更好?
还是说, 曾经拥抱过所固执的美好,
那就, 以后都无法得到更好?

谁说, 美好只是短暂的停留,
时间依然不肯放过,
仿佛漫无边际的天空插播彩色的晚霞,
或许偶然地, 被乌云遮盖,
或许取巧地, 幸运的显现,
却已不晓得期待了许久,
也仅是短暂的束缚.
可能,
长久的美好, 长久起来, 即变得理所当然.
也不过是因为, 事物的高潮迭起, 潮起潮落, 起伏回荡,
才尽显美好的稀贵.

忘了珍惜吗?
努力把在手中, 却散如盘沙, 抓不住的幸福.
忘了关怀吗?
...
究竟是谁忘了?
到底是谁记得?

因为总停留脚步,
回不去,
也向不前去.
岁月的洗礼, 洗不去那层层迭迭的小事.
可是, 那都是小事吗?
然而,
对谁是不屑一提的小事,
对谁又是不能释怀的大事?

谁尖锐的眼神,
象征似的短剑,
穿透了长久以来被树立的坚韧围墙.
仰视镜子内的自己,
习惯了望上看对方,
把谁给渺小了.

曾经尝过最好的,
奈何再也尝不到最好的味道.
并不是不好,
只是, 总欠缺些什么.
只是, 总觉得少了些什么.
又执着些什么.
什么都不值得,
那一些, 都不值得.

终于,
誓言成为了逝言.
又是一段永无止境的开始.
总是重复又重复地犯错,
所以, 一次又一次地承认.

-

怀念, 逝言,
逝去的誓言.

嗯, 童年.

原来我只是突然累了.

To Infinity, And Beyond!

2011-04-16T20:41:00.000+08:00

There's nothing more I can say..

I love the movies.

Toy Story - 1995

Toy Story 2 - 1999

Toy Story 3 - 2010

Everything, that makes life beautiful..

I don't know who I am, sometimes.

I doubt myself, most of the time.

I know I've to overcome it.

Days will be better.

Sorry for those who I've bothered,

your time, or your feelings, whatsoever.

阴影.

2011-04-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

我了解到最近都处于深处.
我明白, 必须寻找光点,
努力向光点朝去.
我知道, 并没有什么值不值得,
只是选择去相信, 抑或选择离去.

我一直都很努力地掩盖情绪,
我一直都很努力地不要去麻烦别人,
我一直都很努力地去做好自己就好,

到后来才发现,

越掩盖, 越容易崩溃.

越不麻烦, 越没有谁可以麻烦.

越要求本份, 越无法坚持.

如果还会有那么一天,
我会宁可一切从来都没有开始过.
如果还会有那么一刻,
我会宁愿自己从来都没有做什么.
如果还会有那么一次,
我会坚持,
从来都不期盼些什么.

失望越多, 代表着, 期盼过了, 多少次.

明天,
我一定会微笑的说, 我很好.

夜晚.

2011-04-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

不喜欢这样的自己.

讨厌看到这样的自己.

厌倦那时不时的挣扎,

又为何摆脱不了?

不喜欢这样的感觉,

讨厌经历这样的感觉.

懊恼那时不时的坠落,

又为何总忘不了?

以为坚强了, 忘了;

以为撑住了, 站了.

为什么时间把童年模糊了,

却不能把烙印的伤痕拖走?

以为忍受了, 笑了,

以为解开了, 松了,

为什么记忆把美好淡化了,

却不能把沉淀的哀愁带走?

若生命不曾交错

平行线的束缚

宁可背负这宿命

只是擦肩而行

那么靠近那么遥远

如此熟悉如此莫名

也许会搁下遗憾

也许会平平淡淡

也许会完全颠覆

也许

却无法逆转

宁愿走在单人行道

拉扯着一个人的脚步

苦笑自己的愚昧

然而

多年前的一天

谁闯入了

开始都是快乐的

那也

渐渐地

更熟络了

却也

渐渐地

更疏远了

谁相信了谁的承诺

谁遗忘了谁的诺言

谁又明了

谁的遗憾

总该知道

把梦醒了

缠绕过去的框架

到最后

谁也总不会晓得

谁, 究竟是谁.

那个谁, 又是谁.

大学 ?!

2011-04-03T19:37:00.001+08:00

还真是个眨眼的瞬间, 预试就匆匆结束了.
考得如何?
还真的不知道, 考卷派回来就懂了.
不过, 心里也晓得,
总不会有什么好的消息在那等着.

简单来说, 预试就是考完了,
但是, 更重要的还在后头~~虎视眈眈的, 准备把我们吞掉~~!
一些学院朋友从明天开始又要回到读书的岗位了,
哇! 哇! 哇!
真的很佩服他们的耐力和努力!
可是, 总要休息些吧?
至少一个星期?
看来我也应该追紧他们的脚步...
再看怎样. :)

最近父母逼问的情况越来越烦人了,
比警方逼供嫌犯还给力!
天下父母都应该有那种逼供的本领吧?
如果是嫌犯, 想必已撞墙认罪了. 不好意思啊, 夸张了.

都问些什么呢?
1) 你究竟要读些什么?
2) 你究竟要去哪间大学?
3) 要不要去UTAR?
4) 你要什么时候告诉我?
5) 需要多少钱?
我都回复些什么呢?
1) 我不懂哦, 迟点先啦.
2) 我还没有想到, 不要一直问我啦!
3) 我不知道. 我不知道. 我不知道.
4) 等啦~ 迟点先~
5) 一百五十五万.
那个数目是我随心凑合出来的, 就很顺口的, 一百五十五万.
问答过程后, 就是脑袋轰炸.
真的好懊恼啊!

之前是申请了Nottingham,
但是, 我只是因为他们不需要申请费用, 才毅然申请的.
他们是批我的第一选择, 可是, 我其实没有想要到那儿去读,
然而, 那个科目又让我觉得还蛮吸引的.
International Communication Studies? 适合我吗?
比起普通的Mass Com, 我觉得他们提供的这一科,
比较专业, 和有水准, 可能只是个"international"的词汇吧?
可是, 它就是"international", 怎样都比没有"international"好听吧? 哈哈!

UTAR呢? 如果我去那儿的话, 也不晓得读些什么.
Banking and Finance? Finance? 又不是很有兴趣, 只是还可以罢了.
Corporate Communication? Media and Creative Studies?
可是, 又有点想去那边, 不懂为什么, 环境不错?
比较不喜欢的是要等到明年一月才开学, 好久啊!

救命大学? 双威?
我是不打算要读accounting and finance啦,
总觉得自己不是做accounting的人才.
父母是比较支持我去UTAR, 但在那边一定没有奖学金.
如果去泰莱, 救命(其实我懂他们的译名是"精英"), 还是什么的,
就有机会获取奖学金, 然后扣起来的学费,
也其实没什么差别了.

看到那么多天灾的发生,
也把我那出国读书的欲望, 大大降低了.
加上父母负担可能会很重,
反正, 只要在本地读,
只要本身出色的话, (对, 本身出色! 我也出色, 只是颜色比较暗淡..)
也一定有机会到外国工作的!

谁要给小弟指点指点指点下?
请别吝啬, 踊跃分享.

先撇!

如果.. 这种感觉.

2011-04-01T01:04:00.000+08:00

有段时间离开了,

却怎么也释怀不了.

有些时候淡忘了,

却怎么也摆脱不了.

只是不经意的回想起那一天,

那些年,

那个瞬间,

心麻了,

眼泪打转,

嘴角轻轻上扬.

因为再也没有哪个谁,

会牵着那小手,

溜达游乐场.

因为再也没有别个他,

会站在那等待,

等着谁奔去.

原来,

想念永远都磨不去.

原来,

时间终究也带不去.

时间,

过得好快.

但,

我好想你.

庆幸有段回忆,

也不至于忘记.

预试咯!

2011-03-23T20:05:00.000+08:00

好的, 先整理一下我的考试时间表.

等下, 还需要一点时间.

不好意思, 系统故障, 请稍等.

*滴答...滴答...滴答*

感谢您的耐心等待.

已在列印当中...

时间如下:

24/3 - Accounting P4

25/3 - Business P2
        - Econs P3

29/3 - Business P3

30/3 - Accounting P3
        - Business P1
        - Econs 4

报告完毕, 谢谢.

-

天啊, 这是什么世界啊!

也不是我想在这里的,

只是, 我读, 对是"读", 不是"做", Accounting 读到神经出现问题.

考试压力过大导致精神出错... 不知道这样是否可以控告校方?

哪位可以告诉我?!!!

不好意思, 考前忧虑症越接近考试越频密发作. :/

不管怎样.....

冲刺啊!

加油啊!

祝各位考试的朋友们, 考试顺利!

还有...

哈哈, 这样好象不大可能. :)

所以, 还是听一听歌,

休息一下笨重的脑袋,

继续....

读书. :P

Would You Hold It Against Brit and Sam? Nah!

2011-03-21T23:54:00.000+08:00

When something shows up in different outcomes, they might probably be seen as typical and unique in they own ways, but back to the basic, they are actually the same. Differences occur is simply because we, people view them from different angles as we all have different perspectives towards what we feel and see.

Maybe? Well, I'm not good in presenting myself in English.

Original Artwork from Britney:

Cover by Sam Tsui:

Speaking frank, I love both of the versions. Brit's is the uptempo, big bass and energetic dance pop while Sam's version is a mid tempo, slower and emotional song, mostly like a ballad. They're sharing the same lyrics, slightly different perhaps, but you can exactly feel the differences between them, they're just bringing different messages. Both are really great, comparisons aren't necessary sometimes.

Blog updated @ Genting :)

2011-03-20T01:19:00.001+08:00

Okay, A2 trial is just right next week, but guess what? I'm updating my blog here in Genting! I wasted my holidays ( or so-called study week? ), like seriously, I spent only ONE day to study for the whole week! Was busy attending several outings and gatherings, I didn't do much what-people-think-to-be-the-most-important-job STUDYING. Haha, poor words linking I know, but apparently, it's so damn true! Sigh. I should really study hard, a real hardcore when I get back to college next week which I'll just have approximately 3 days to do that! The first exam is Accounting paper 4 and I haven't started revising it yet. :/

Stop the saddening topic, get back to my Genting.

The weather here is wonderfully cool, with the misty misty surrounding, like what my parents expected. My dad kept saying the weather here would be nice before we came. And yes, he's right! Okay so, I didn't really want to join the trip at first, thought of the trial exam is just awfully near. Why I'd change my mind? Simple yet understandable. This particular situation made me finally realise that my heart controls my mind, more than my brain :P hence does that mean next week I'll be joining my friend's genting trip for the MyFm Award ( or whatever it's called?) ? I'll prove that sooner or later! Hehe.

Haha, let the pictures speak for the weatherrrr! :)

the above pic was taken on the way to Genting,

while the other one was taken before i went to Starbucks. :)

Oh yeah, speaking of Starbucks, I was planning to study there as I don't want to waste my time doing nothing cause going to Outdoor Theme Park during weekends ( especially weekend of school holiday ) is definitely taking my life! I hate to queue for such a long time ( w/ my bros ) to play a game, the game might be fun, but the time waiting definitely slaughters the excitement before it's my turn.

Before going to Starbucks, we went to First World for the room check-in, and that's really horrible when we got the number 2xx+ while it was just no. 2x's turns! Waiting there was terribly boring but I found it nice when they actually prepared some performances for us :) I mean, not in the lobby there, but the performances were held right to the entrance. I didn't know how to explain the floor plan, the main point is, there are some performances going on there !

A duo male group singing ! Not too bad though!

Dancing performance! This was the best :)

The children were the volunteers to join to part of the performance.

And, I like the performance of a guy and a girl there! Their smiles mesmerised me so much!

What I'm trying to say is they really enjoy in their single performances cause this is repetitive every hour.

And I've watched twice, they were still enjoying themselves in there! Pretty awesome!

Haha, an adorable lady joined the band dancing :)

We waited for more than 2 hours for the stupid dumb check-in. After that, we settled down our luggages, went for lunch, and... you know what? I tried to enter the CASINO! But obviously, I failed. The security guard wanted to check my I/C. :/ I guess I'm just looking too young, if I didn't dye my hair, some fellows would say I'm just 15! HAHA! nothing much to be proud, but I'm childish, so you can't blame me for looking young. It's gifted! LOL, I rather I'm gifted with intellegence and knowledge though. :P

So there I was alone, as my parents had their gambling games to deal with, my bros and his friends were hanging in Theme Park, I went to Starbucks, started my lonesome "Study plan". Yups, there's a plan for study, i sat down, found a seat, and started to read my Galaxie which I just bought! Haha :) Didn't want to buy that actually, but I was attracted by the cover. Guess who? It's.. Britney B***h! I wasn't so into her last time when I were in secondary school, but I did kinda like her "Baby One More Time" during my primary school time, well.. those are not the points. The thing is, after watching the Glee episode tribute to Britney, I found back my love for her :D

Caramel Frap w/ Britney Spears!

W/ my laptop, slice of Chocolate Tuxedo ( new cake i think) and my ECONS!

Haha, don't ask me if I studied or not, you know the answer.

And frankly, I did nothing much there besides crapping with Jan and Gabriel in MSN. Haha, sorry if I stunned you :P cause I was really bored.

I found that I kinda know how to enjoy my life sometimes, do I? Today was somehow relaxing, besides the moments I suffered a lil when I was trying to study my Econs(which eventually failed to do so), everything seems to be good :)

You might find out that I've changed a lil while blogging this, well, I'm just trying to do something different, not only those emo emo posts I mean. Blogging is meant to be writing down your feelings, and also recording your life :)

I might stop here as it's actually 1am+ now, and I'm having my maggi cup noodle while updating this. Hehe, don't blame me for that, we need food to survive, and how couldn't you have your maggi while you're in Genting? It's like a must do tradition to all!

Nights world. Tomorrow will still be another awesome Sunday!

and I heard that Japan's nuclear system brought some good news today, hope it's not a rumour. Think good, Be good!

*p/s: To those who actually read my blog, PLEASE rate for the poll on your left, YES, it's on your LEFT! Thank you, but I wonder if anyone'll see this?! And also, I apologise for my English!

<3 to the people who I <3 and <3 me. Tata!

奇迹.

2011-03-14T23:30:00.001+08:00

也不记得直到今天的这一刻,

人生曾出现过多少次的奇迹.

还有多少人会愿意相信奇迹的存在?

现实的残酷和冷漠究竟抹杀的多少人的脆弱心灵?

可能,

'现实'这个抽象个体并不了解人类的渺小.

就好象昼夜,

只交叉于黄昏和破晓,

从来都不会面对面.

因为白天的时候, 不会有黑夜.

冷酷的现实根本不会有机会去了解人生的短促,

就好象人类总不明白为什么现实会如此窒息,

一次又一次地把希望磨灭.

跌倒了,

要爬起来.

但是人生有多少的时间给予那样的领悟?

短短的数十年?

对整个宇宙, 整个地球, 一些也起不了作用.

多少个人背负了多少的抱负去实现梦想.

很多人成功了,

但是, 有更多的人却止步于梦想达成的前面.

并不是没有花费任何精力和不断尝试,

只是花了太多的时间去实践,

最终却来个意想不到的深渊.

跌倒了,

伤得重了,

累了,

还有机会吗? 时间呢?

究竟人生还有多少的时间去实践?

别说,

只要努力就会成功,

其中还要配合多少的天时地利人和?

还是比较倾向于,

只要努力过了, 就不会后悔, 不管结果如何.

奈何,

过程中的心酸和失望,

还会有哪个谁去了解?

人生真的能简简单单吗?

怀疑了,

追求着的尽是一些不切实际的笑话.

还没有看透吧?

假装明白些什么?

只是一个长不大的小孩,

总是期望着些什么,

总是憧憬那些什么.

还凭什么来感叹人生无奈?

或许, 习惯了嘲笑,

也不介意了.

有什么值得羞耻的?

也不过是那几十年的人生.

把视野开阔好吗?

只是希望时间能改变一切,

却加剧了承受的痛苦.

别再这样了, 好吗?

心一层一层撕裂着.

不想翻开报章,

却又控制不住自己.

只是来到现实的面前,

人类毕竟是那么地不堪一击.

希望, 事情不会再恶化下去.

祈祷, 加油,

简单地相信, 奇迹.

明天会更好, 真的吗?

至少每个晚上,

我依然相信着.

今夜的天空, 有点灰.

星星, 你还在吗?

有点想念你了.

告诉月亮别害怕,

因为我们总会守护彼此的身旁.

想念 + 考前忧虑症?

2011-03-02T22:54:00.000+08:00

农历新年才刚离去不久,
怎么眨个眼睛, 又到三月来了呢?

-想念篇-

时间,
总是在快乐的时光中, 溜走.
总是在不留意的当儿, 流逝.
天知道要怎么留守时间?
不愿意看见身边的一切,
一天, 复一天, 又一天的老去.
好想回到以前那样,
卧躺在舒适床上,
聊着数不尽的美好天堂.
那诚恳的心灵之窗,
穿透着无限光芒.
心里偷偷微笑,
拥有那一天美丽的幻想.
很庆幸有那小时候的友谊,
简简单单, 单纯愉快.
很开心有那长大了的友情,
互相关心, 彼此鼓励.

至于现在?
还有谁会来闲聊?
连通电话也懒了.
时间吧?
都冲淡了吧?
秉承着什么?
即使那时候是多么渴望,
回想起依然感到沮丧,
却提不起勇气.
到最后,
一句为什么也懒了.

明天会更好.
只希望, 再次拥有那么的一个人.

-考前忧虑症?-

症状: 爱理不理却又责怪自己, 容易内疚却无法控制自己, 担心, 焦虑, 着急, 心情难以拿捏, 等似个人状况而定.

治疗方法: 用工读书.

实际的方法: 取消考试!

-终-

我不要!
我不要!
我不要!

人生无奈, 无奈人生?
加油吧!

只是长大了,

懂的事情多了,

要相信一个人,

不再简单.

互相托付的情谊?

别傻了, 好吗?

Imperfection.

2011-02-25T23:47:00.001+08:00

-
People are seeking hard for perfection when life isn't perfect,
or fair enough to be perfect.
Is this what you want to say?
After all the failures or falls you've met in your life?

You can't get everything you want, can you?
Perhaps you're good but just isn't good enough, aren't you?
People seem to have a bone to pick with you, don't they?

Instead, you never really pay out great effort to what you try to achieve, do you?
Is that true?
Or to be precise, that's just all you can do?
The sarcastic limited potential of you?

I'm so shame on you!
Don't ever make any excuses to cover up yourself.
You are so embarrassing.
:(
-

Be strong, boy.

No matter what, keep on moving.

Don't care whatever people say about you.

You're worth to stay still.

You're awesome in your own way.

Life is harsh, sometimes.

But never forget those who are good to you,

never forget those you'll take a lifetime to remember.

There is still somebody who will appreciate existence of yours.

Live your life,

with hopes and faiths.

I like to watch Glee, not only because of the music,

but also because of the characters featured in Glee.

They are mentioned as the losers in the high school,

they are being discriminated by other students.

People are looking down on them, while they are really talented.

Whoever thinks singing/ music is gay, I'm sorry.

Maybe you're not a loser, but the drama does remind me of myself,

for being such a loser in school and life.

It's just a series of drama after all,

but sometimes, drama shows your life, the world and also, the fact.

When people feel that you're wrong, prove to them you're not the one who they think.

Be a loser, you'll learn more in your life.

cause when people are trying to be against you, you'll surely fight back.

you might lose in the beginning, but you'll get experience.

And one day, you'll surely outshine those who are against you.

I don't know what I'm blogging right now.

These are just some random feelings I'm having.

Whenever I'm down or feeling upset,

thank you for being such an inspiration.

I'll always have this video with me.

Days, will be better.

Life is fun.

Cause we'll never know how the future goes.

To, myself, friends I love, family I appreciate.

Danny.

一封信.

2011-02-22T23:42:00.001+08:00

归咎于, 那一次的相遇,

把谁都连接了.

偶尔徘徊于斟酌的路口.
无限选择,
却无处可躲.

曾放任不屑一提的过去,

却也留住了些珍贵的什么.

昔日的美好,
也许, 就像相框,

锁住了,
无法释放.
一味儿的回味.

瞬息的变幻,

生命与生命之间的交缠.

总是充满了意想不到的惊喜.

遗憾的,

渴望有时侯却变得如此荒唐.

请别随意承诺了, 好吗?

请别让我相信了, 好吗?

只是, 谁那轻描淡写的一句,

在谁的心上,

烙印了好久好久...

所以, 别这样了, 好吗?

因为总会有谁,

在一旁期待着, 守候着.

你说, 日出.

他说, 日落.

在尽头的另一边,

只是, 都看得有些不同.

我选择, 相信你.

是因为, 我笨得执着.

也因为,

放弃了选择.

给自己的一封信

我上

如果, 遗忘.

2011-02-17T22:28:00.001+08:00

偶尔有那一瞬间的期盼,
希望记忆能如电脑操作系统般,
触碰几个按键就能删掉.
倘若人类都能任意地把记忆开启, 关闭,
那会是个怎样的世界?
一切的美好,
是否会停留?
存在的灾恶,
是否会离去?

只是有时的夜晚,
冷静的让我彷徨.
还是睡吧?
谁愿意来烦恼?

散场的拥抱.

2011-02-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

从你的眼角慢慢地明了
我能做的很少
原来你藏着伤但不想和我聊

你选的电影像某种预告
不坦白的主角
最后流着眼泪坚持独自走掉

散场的拥抱我还在燃烧
但你心里的浪潮拒绝让我看到
你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢

散场的拥抱混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵还能道歉和好
我知道你留着和他所有合照
明明面前是答案却撕掉不要

呵护地祈祷温柔地讨好
爱能让人渺小
苦笑冒充微笑浪漫得不肯逃

散场的拥抱我还在燃烧
但你心里的浪潮拒绝让我看到
你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢

散场的拥抱混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵还能道歉和好
我知道我们和你们不能比较
但我的爱多强悍出乎你预料

散场的拥抱我还在燃烧
但你心里的浪潮拒绝让我看到
你煎熬不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢

散场的拥抱混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵还能道歉和好
我知道太美的回忆像副手铐
越是挣脱越缠绕我比你明了

Enchanted.

2011-01-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

'it's alright to stay there, it's alright to believe.'
i'm just trying to convince myself with those words.
to stay in somewhere i might not belong to.
to believe in something i might not want to know.
whoever i am, whoever you are,
just doesn't make much difference to this particular situation.
no matter how hard i try, perhaps trying to believe in,
there's just no door opened for me to go through.

well, that's not something very important, but it just bothers me sometimes,
especially in a raining night.

-

not to mention, the long-awaited AS result is released.
just never though the day would come that fast.
i've been thinking to plan my further study after i get my results,
but now, future seems to be unpredictable, again.
i somehow get the highest score for my accounting,
following by economic and lastly, the worst one, business studies.
general paper is not a principle subject to be mentioned, but sadly, i get a poor rank for it :(
the outcome is definitely not what i expected as my business studies is the worst subject among the principle subjects.
i was planning to resit my econs test at first, but now, i have to change my plan.
i put the most effort for business studies, and i get a really shocking outcome.
sometimes, how much you pay out doesn't really mean how much you'll get back.
anyway, i think i'm just not that good in writing english essay, or to be more accurate,
'academic writing'.

after chinese new year*, it's time for me to be hardworking!
[ need to get myself a reminder in case i forget =P ]

*to be exact, we have 15 days to celebrate cny :)

-

back to my title, Enchanted.
actually there is nothing echanting happened.
just i'm falling into one of the song from Taylor Swift's album, Speak Now.

Lyric of the song:
Here I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles

Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifting eyes and vacancy vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered "have we met?"
Across the room your silhouette starts to make it's way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up
2am, who do you love?
I wonder till I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say,
It was enchanted to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that this was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

well, the lyric means alot, to many people, to someone, and to me :)

days will be better,
and,
CNY is just one week away from today =D

the best.

Danny How.

plans!

2011-01-23T17:58:00.000+08:00

okay, guess what?
i really need to start saving up my $$$ after CNY.
i've to stop spending so much,
no more buying unnecessary stuff,
reduce going out with friends.
i won't HOPE i can do it, but i MUST do it !
-please don't date me out unless i ask you to do so.
-save up at least half of my weekly allowance. [this is challenging!]
i would put this as the first,
as i feel so bad whenever i'm buying something.
guilt > satisfaction. this is how it works.
so from now, behave myself in spending! ^^

what's the next plan?
well, i must really work hard this year.
study smart, i would say. don't need to be really hard, but smart!
to be a smart person, it's useless if you study in a wrong way...
but,
what's the smart way to study? =X
anyway, A2 is not a JOKE! take away all the built-in laziness in my body! argh!!
i'll be getting my AS results tomorrow, but i don't feel like checking it when the result is released.
i don't have the courage to do that! o.O
kindly hope that everyone will get their favourable results tmr!
BEST WISHES.

was planning to get a longer post,
but i realised i don't have much things to type.
thanks to twitter ._.
there are more plans in inner me,
i would just keep them in my secrecy place.
i won't break my own promises right? hope i won't :)

smile for a better future.
you won't always get what you want, not until you try.
:]

2011, xoxo!

突然? 忽然?*

2011-01-11T17:52:00.007+08:00

没错!
就是, 突然, 不没有很忽然,
想宣泄一下.

可能刚开学然后又要考试了,
让我错乱了一下.

有时候, 不喜欢~~有些人~~上课的时候有人打扰老师(学院称教授?).
必须知道, 不是每个人的成绩都那么好.
能把那么厚的课本读完, 并了解, 不需要笔记的协助, 是个人的智慧,
并不是每个人都有能力去了解课本上的内容!
还是有大部分的人需要抄笔记, 而且也不用一直强调.
原本都觉得那节的课废话很多了,
加上那些零零碎碎的打岔, 中断,
根本就是, sian掉.

有时候, 不喜欢~~有些人~~人过分嘲弄别人, 尤其是当人家无法明白的时候.
虽然并没有很喜欢和某些人相处,
但是越来越过分的言论,
在不晓得从哪来的'不可理喻'结合之下,
变成了很令人发指的态度.
zat人, 跟中伤人是不一样的!
zat人是会让别人都笑, 被zat的人会觉得好气又好笑.
中伤人, 只是一味儿的中伤.
人家就是这样的, 又关你什么事?
这样虽然也不关我事,
反正, 讲的不是我, 讲我的也不会让我听到.

就是, 有够力不爽了那么一下, 就那么一下下,
让我逼不得以, 把这记录下来.

真不明白,
你有钱, 不代表你有权利这样.
你聪明, 就不要滥用.
你特别, 也不用炫耀.

..........

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........

.......

......

.....

....

...

..

.

开玩笑罢了.
不过, 也没有什么人会看,
所以..
讲了就算啦. xD
反正, 我也是给人家在背后讲的啦. ^^

*注:
此你非你也, 此他并非他.
某人既是某人,
人家只是人家,
内容只供参考.
没有特别含义.

2011.

2011-01-08T20:18:00.001+08:00

新年快乐!!

没有什么特别的要求,
只是,
该做好的, 就应该做好.
尽好自己的本份,
一定可以战胜A Level的! :)

每晚不要太迟睡觉.
要存多一点钱.
要好好做自己.
要好好对朋友. xD
希望一切都可以如想象中进行!

大家都健康, 平安.
不要灾难和战争.
Peace Please. :)

2011,
你一定要好好!

2010 ( part II )

2011-01-02T13:29:00.000+08:00

Currently Not Available.

cause 2011 is already here :)

Let's learn our mistakes from the past and do it better this year.

2010 ( part I )

2010-12-29T01:18:00.001+08:00

feel like blogging suddenly, nothing much special, as always,
but there are plenty of special occasions i would like to record down before the year ends.
and yes, 2010 is soon to be a history! :/
am i the only person who always fails to achieve his commitments every year,
ending up with a silly face, like this --> ' :( ' ?
haha, whatever, it isn't that terrible actually.

2010 has been a tough year for me,
leaving chong hwa doesn't make my life either easier or happier apparently.
A Level is not an easy obstacle to go through, especially for a Chinese-educated person like me.
with my really horrible English and the laziness built inside me,
i really don't know how i'm going to fight for my last semester!
whenever i think of my Accounting, i feel like crying.
i didn't pay much attention for the A2 syllabus as we were preparing for our AS exams.
however, i think i did quite bad in my AS, and also, i failed to catch up with the A2 topics.
how awful i am as a person?
i need to work hard for my English, remember the vocabs i have learnt,
and also my grammar.

college life is not that chillax life like what people thought, for me.
despite there aren't many rules in college and being able to skip classes sometimes,
retaining my scholarship, taking public transports go and back, tons of exams and so on..
are making me so so so stressed and tired.
leaving a familiar environment and staying far from close friends,
really did make me feeling depressed last time.
but the good parts are,
i learnt to be more independent, and also built myself a stronger mindset.
isn't it a fact that, when we are trying to get something, we have to give up another thing?
i have been thinking a lot of things recently,
18-year-old moments are precious in that sense that,
i can ponder something from even better angles and broader ways. haha!

well, other than only A Level, specifying only to the exams,
college life has some fun in its own way.
going out to have lunch during break time,
skipping classes to watch movies/ meet friends (ooppps..),
playing phone in class (although i did bring my phone to school, and also using it like i was in college)...
i do enjoy taking LRT to college, but i don't know why, i am too lazy taking train to go home.
i enjoy the sight of sky and clouds in the morning,
the colour changes when the sun rises,
it does make my day actually, hehe!
i can't express how much i love the view of the sky, the different shapes of clouds,
people might not know but until now, i still like to relate the shape of the clouds to something it looks like.
i guess i haven't turned off my kid's imaginery thought even though i'm already 18. :)

i hope i can enjoy my college life more next year, doing well in exams for sure.
it's a new year, a new start, and also, A2 is coming!

- Part I, to be continue.. -

*i feel sorry for my English :x

灰.

2010-12-03T22:43:00.000+08:00

天空, 有点灰.

压抑着的挣扎,
越压抑, 反作用力更大.

不是伤心, 没有开心.

灰,
黑白之间,
不黑, 不白.
没有值得开心的,
也没什么伤心的.

风?

2010-12-02T11:49:00.000+08:00

倘若,
那只是一阵风,
就让风, 吹过.
不会留下些什么,
不会要求些什么,
只是,
这样而已.
也只有这样而已.

那日子.

2010-11-21T01:33:00.000+08:00

如果, 你曾注意过,
我望着你,
却说没什么,
你是否知道我有些话要对你说?

如果, 你曾发现过,
我看着你,
笑一笑却不说什么,
你是否知道我有些事要与你说?

如果, 你曾期待过,
我对着你,
静静的什么都不做,
你是否也知道, 其实, 我很想一直这样下去?
-

曾经很在意, 很在乎,
甚至会期待或者奢望些什么,
可是,
或许是冷淡了,
还是没有资格想要什么,
可能是看开了,
今年的生日,
其实我也没有想些什么.
每年都会有一次生日吧?
每天都有人生日的吧?
真的有那么重要吗?
我不是什么重点人物,
那会有多重要?
只要熟络的朋友们知道就好,
只要家人明白就好,
有心就好了.

不管怎样,
还是要谢谢一些人的. :)

谢谢佳颖和婉仪的礼物和卡

很喜欢那卡片哦! :) 至于钱包, 我会好好收着的. 看几时会用到吧. :)

谢谢振竤的零食!

虽然不是生日礼物, 可是我就把它们当作礼物吧. xD

原来生日还要做这样"鱼"的事情,

谢谢为了要省钱的大家. :)

rm30才拿一杯大大又没有讲很好喝的水, 还是wings cafe值得一点. lol

甜品哥哥.

因为要等晚餐. o.0

我和素蓉.

我和恩婷.

我和dai lou荣杰.

我和振粦.

我和诗慧.

我和斌有.

我和美琪.

大家.

还有不能不提的, 智开! 他总是很特出地给人家拍到. :D

一直打磕睡.

来些客套话, 谢谢大家在百忙之中抽空出席. :)

谢谢智开总是载我, 我知道这样很麻烦的.

*to surong: 我没有不开心, 我只是刚病好, 很累. -.-

谢谢sms我的朋友.

谢谢facebook祝我的朋友.

谢谢我家人的祝福.

真希望18岁的愿望,

可以实现.
真心的, 衷心的, 祈求着.

倘若一切都如风般,

走过, 不留痕迹.

也许, 有人曾试着了解过.

暂定.

2010-11-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

考试, 暂且告一段落.
好不容易熬过这艰难的几个星期,
生活也稍微恢复了平静.
但是,
这平静也仅仅只有"考完试的平静",
心情也没有什么特别好起来.
除了和朋友出去以外,
其他的事情看起来也没有什么能让我提起劲的.

可能,
是厌倦了吧?
厌倦了, 那十年如一日的自己.
还是,
真的很累了?
我也希望能早点躺在床,
好好的睡一觉.
然而最近的夜晚,
总辗转难眠,
躺在床上总见无聊和无奈.
无法入眠的时候,
也就会想些有的没的.
我不要这样子,
所以我宁可待至夜些,
听听歌, 看下影片,
也不要胡思乱想.

曾经听过有人那么说, 18岁是生命的转折期,
是迈入人生另一个里程的阶级.
这神奇的一年,
法律上, 18岁的大家, 会被归纳为"大人".
教育上, 18岁的大家, 是准备踏入大学, 铺设自己的前路.
思维上, 18岁的大家, 就一定是有些与众不同.
经过了18年的洗礼,
也许, 每个人, 都变得与当初想象的, 不一样了.
或许, 每个人, 都期盼更有挑战性的前程.
也可能, 像某个人一样, 一直浑浑噩噩的,
看不透人情世故, 看不清人间冷暖.
是谁?
这, 不重要.

再说,
最近脑子里都填满了一堆的问号(?????),
好想好想知道很多很多的事情.
当然, 能问的, 我固然会问,
不能的, 自己还是会继续收着.
有些东西, 还是自己收藏起来比较好, 不是吗?
至少, 我还是这么认为.

好久没有唱k了!
所谓的"size"和智开在sunway唯一的朋友. xD

考试最后一天, 和学院朋友到sunway, 然后吃火锅. :)

虽然我有一百个不是很喜欢我的学院,

但是庆幸偶尔还有一群可以在一起玩的朋友.

其实我真的知道,
我不算什么.
我也只是我.
对于不喜欢的事情,
对于喜欢的事情,
我都会顽固下去.

-

如果那一个梦,
终究会实现..
如果, 是如果,
也不过是如果.

-

续.

考试期间

2010-10-24T00:22:00.001+08:00

如题,
这时候的我, 又来到了这里.
没有想怎样,
只是有点可悲的说,
当没有人可以诉说的时候,
这里总是最好的依靠.
始终觉得, 文字是近乎完美让大家抒发情怀的管道.
可惜学院上的都是英文,
而且被要求写的文章又时那种无趣的"公式化"文章,
弄到我有苦言声却无法表达.
很怀念在班上写抒情文的时刻.
很怀念华文考试时总是"不经意"地选抒情文来回答.
很希望有一个心仪的题材可以让我自由挥笔,
好久没有那种"写完了感觉良好"的自我满足.
很奇妙不是吗?
看着自己的成品被老师批阅后,
那一行红色的字迹,
赞美的评语,
总有想拿去炫耀的心态.
也该停止这所谓的"自我感觉良好".
免得一再沉沦, 难以自拔. 哈哈!

其实,
我知道, 付出不等于回报.
我知道, 我总不能得到我想要的一切.
我知道, 不管日子怎样, 我必须坚强下去.
我真的知道, 我真的明白.
却找也找不到, 我要的答案.
时间, 可以把伤痕冲淡,
却留下了摩擦的痕迹.
时间, 可以把眼泪带走,
却带不走心中的悲哀.
为什么要把事情都弄得那么矛盾呢?
我很想回到那一刻的安宁,
有着大家在身边的感觉.

学院,
真的是感激万分.
感谢他们把我"美好"的成绩, 在我不晓得的情况下,
送到了我的父母大人手上.
虽然那一句话(语气),
或许是出自内心, 或许是出自玩笑,
可是,
我真的受伤了.
伤得有点重,
那时眼泪真的差点就飙了出来.
可能他们不知道那对我有多重要,
也许我并不想让他们知道,
或许他们也没有想要知道.
或许, 也许,
都是自己的猜测.

我答应自己,
我会好好读书的,
我一定会.
今天是美好的开始.

-

最近迷上了Taylor Swift的歌,
总觉得,
她有种在华文歌坛很难寻找的特质.
不论是在歌曲表达上, 她的词, 还是她的人.

-

出到来这里,
相处方法,
基本上都改变了.
在某个程度上,
都是相同的,
只是之前自己都没什么注意到.
期盼不久自己也很习惯.

-

曲终,
但是那余音会在我心中,
绕梁.
人散,
却不能忘了.

转载自: 我以前的blog post.

2010-10-14T21:21:00.000+08:00

- 天空 -
失去灵魂的躯体…
是得到了解脱,还是失去了人生?
断了线的风筝…
是得到了自由,还是失去了约束?
破出蛹的飞蝶…
是得到了力量,还是失去了依靠?
展翅的天鹅…
是放开了双手,还是失去了拥护?
时间在无形中,冲淡了人与人之间的感情…
距离在无意中,拉开了人与人之间的关系…
人与人之间,存在着的究竟是什么?
信任?坚持?努力?期待?真诚?
人与人之间,寄托着的究竟是什么?
快乐?自由?欢心?感动?幸福?
我看着天空…
不断的犹豫着…
是我选择了天空?还是天空了选择我?
我选择我一片属于我的天空…
还是天空选择一片属于它的我…
我曾经留下的痕迹…
是否会给我带来无限的回忆?
你曾经留下的踪迹…
是否会给我带来无穷的感触?
思考…是好的还是坏的呢?
怎样才是好的呢?
怎样才是坏的呢?
真假,在我眼中已分辨不出…
好坏,在我脑里已感觉不到…
闭上眼睛…
清静思绪…
我要的是什么?
快乐?微笑?
我想要的,都不只是这些…
真正的快乐,是要在伤心后才感觉到的…
但是,曾几何时我感受过的,都无影无踪了呢?
真正的微笑,是要在哭泣后才察觉到的…
但是,曾几何时我察觉过的,都销声匿迹了呢?
我想问你,对你来说什么是真正的快乐?
可是,你又会如何答我呢?
答案,是要若隐若现才完美吗?
人,总是害怕知道背后的真相…
是害怕会伤害了自己?害怕伤害了身边的?还是害怕伤害了彼此?
再一次的迷惑…
是我选择天空,还是天空选择了我?
是谁选择了谁,真的是那么重要吗?
我让天空选择我,是我选择天空还是天空选择我?
天空让我选择天空,是天空选择我还是我选择天空?
其实,我又何必去在意呢?
是谁选择了谁,真的要去在意吗?
我迷惑…
揭开这个答案的背后所要付出的代价是多少?
我不想,我虚弱,我害怕…
我不想在揭晓答案的同时,失去的比得到的…
来的更多更多…
所以,我选择了逃避…
逃避,像是一种慢性毒品…
让我不知不觉被吸引住了…
让我总在有困难中,都选择了它…
天真?也许吧…
总是没有勇气去面对背后所需承担的…
懦弱?可能吧…
很多事情就是在我们的背后被注定了…

-天空,我选择了你,你也选择了我…
_____________________________________________

这, 或许是我最爱的一篇.
才发现, 我再也写不回这样的东西了.
每当我回顾从前的部落, 总忍不住, 又笑了. :)

好怀念, 那个时候的自己.

习惯, 真的会好吗?

2010-09-27T01:26:00.000+08:00

有好一段时间,
没有这种感觉了.
几乎忘了,
这是什么一回事;
几乎忘了,
这是怎样的滋味.

一种迷惘,
触动深处的感慨.
一种彷徨,
努力掩盖的思绪.
久而久之,
可能忘了,
也许不想提起,
或许习惯了, 就会好.
然而,
偶然的轻轻一碰,
特意, 抑或无意,
总会心里一颤.
呼唤起了
那沉睡的回忆.
沉睡,
不是忘了,
不是逃避,
只是时间舒缓了冲击,
平伏了波动.

不想叙事,
不想记录.
只是,
轻描淡写,
那感觉.

虽然不在状况中,
可是感觉却如此熟悉.
曾经的那一句话,
曾经的那一件事.

兜兜转转,
寻寻觅觅;
梦幻现实,
烟幕物障;
不明不了,
不闻不问;
七上八下,
无始无终.

沉默,
不是不知道,
不是不在意,
而是,
本身的心酸,
又有多少人明了?
反正多说再说,
也只是,
客套带过.

人生,
都在公式化.
情绪,
却在复杂化.

-
习惯, 真的会好吗?
习惯, 真的会成自然吗?
不晓得了.

但却知道,
伤口,
总会留下伤痕.
不痛了,
也隐隐作痛.

septemberrr!

2010-09-01T21:24:00.009+08:00

I really hate to say this, but,
it's so true that I can't even fight back a little,
... time FLIES! :(
Just a blink of eyes, here comes the horrifying September.
Not really that "horrifying", it just, shocks me greatly,
as in I don't know what to react.
I always find excuses to make myself feeling better. zz.
That's not the point anyway.

Hopefully, in this brand new month, ( This is so familiar! )
I will probably get a new start!
AS exam is just 2 months away,
and before that, I have to sit for my trial exams, just 14 days from today.
I'm not complaining or grumbling, it's just so periodic.
Whenever there's an exam, I will have this awkward feeling that makes me kinda struggling.
Why are the bad side and the good side always quarreling?
Couldn't they just be reconciled to each other?
FINE!
Seems like I'm facing some self-struggling issues. hahas.
Whatever.

Let's see what ambitious plans I have for this ~~awful~~ awesome month.
1) Concentrate in class, and no phone games! Study whenever there's a free time/ period. :)
2) Go to bed before 12am!
3) Study every night (wow?), just study, even if the laptop is beside me.
4) Only an episode of a drama a day, not applicable to weekends.
5) Save $$$. If can, eat mixed rice everyday :( aww.

One-week Holiday next week, planning to go Perpustakaan KL to study. anyone wanna join? xD
A really nice place to study! Free wi-fi, air-conditioned and comfortable environment!
Only studying there I can focus more to the books/ notes,
and I won't get distracted easily. hehes.

Retaining the schorlarship really brings me so much pressure. Sighs.
But without scholarship, I don't think I will even try to study. haha!
Hope all A Level and UEC students achieve well in their exams.
Please grant me all the wishes please! :)

Tomorrow is a new day, I always believe that.
Accouting, Business Studies, Econs and G.P, I'm coming!

近古雅韵

2010-08-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

回到去那熟悉的地方,
感觉, 不同了.
-
原本只是打算做个忠实的观众,
在台下, 默默地打气.
可是最后,
还是答应了协助出任后台总监.
(原本是舞台的, 不过后来思娥可以帮忙, 所以我就做后台了.)
当初的不情愿,
是因为害怕会拖累整个音乐会.
帮不到,
反而还影响到演出, 就不好了.
不过, 庆幸的, 这都过去了.
也没有后悔有这个选择.

这次回去帮忙,
虽然才离开那几个月, 不过,
感觉不一样了,
变得有点陌生.
第一天去到, 有点不知所措.
看着大家的眼神,
该说话好呢? 还是打个招呼好就避开眼神?
也没有想很多,
就尴尬地笑了一笑.
也许我不再是什么,
而是一个外来的身份,
协助音乐会, 所以,
变得很不同了.
就像和中华的朋友团聚时,
看着他们谈论着班上的有趣事情,
这种感觉.

回到音乐会,
看见大家奋斗的心情,
有点感触.
大家都做到我觉得不可能的事情,
尤其是看着低音组感触最大.
想当时, 我拿到谱的时候,
我就觉得自己拉不到了.
很可耻吧? 连自己都看不起自己.
幸好当时并没有答应演出,
不然真的会给带衰掉.
看着低音组去年一起努力的朋友们,
还有两个新的演奏员,
觉得他们太棒了.
真庆幸, 我曾经是其中一员.

三天,
这三天,
一个不属于我的梦.
曾经在其中,
很高兴地, 我能为其尽一份绵力.
虽然我没能捐很多的钱,
但我也能尽我一些的能力,
协助音乐会.

感谢后台工作人员与我的配合.
虽然我知道我很长气,
并偶尔很令人烦躁,
但是大家都给予我协助,
完成这三天的工作.
谢谢了.

希望华乐团能继续努力下去!
为年尾的比赛再冲刺,
当然, 也不要忘记学业.
让华乐的色彩, 成为美妙中学生涯的一部分.
-
音乐会的时候,
有人告诉我的一句话,
也只是一句话.
也许都过去了,
也许, 还存在着.
我早就知道了, 不是吗?

想知道是什么?
问看我, 然后我再选择告不告诉你咯. =)
-

突然间, 很讨厌回到学院这个地方.
不喜欢那里, 真的.
虽然当初要离开,
的确是有原因的.
但是当知道离开的理由,
不再可能实现时,
回转过来,
原来我做了一个让我悔恨自己的决定.
:(
我..
还是算了.

天马.行空

2010-07-29T23:16:00.001+08:00

忘了哪个夏天, 变成了白云,
随风任意改变外形,
时而白羊, 时而白兔,
偷偷地在天上望着不知道我的你.

忘了哪个雨后, 变成了彩虹,
随光任意摆动身躯,
时而向东, 时而向西,
庆幸的在上方观察着望着我的你.

还是那一个黄昏, 变成了夕阳,
期盼, 那短暂的美丽带来惊喜,
却也忘了,
这只是刹那间的永恒.

也许是那个早晨, 变成了雾气,
仰慕这种朦胧之感觉,
因为再如何完美,
也无法获得十全十美.
-
不懂为何,
看见很多人很有决心去读书的时候,
突然间, 也很想认真的读书. :)
有些时候,
自己会突然觉醒于某个状况.
是一种瞬间的感触, 还期望这不是流星,
不是短暂的宿命.
我美妙的读书计划,
决定设定在我亲爱的华乐团的音乐会后.
想到音乐会,
还真的担心我是否能担当的来.
有点久没有接触这类型的工作了,
害怕生疏了, 担心连以前仅有的自信也化为零.
虽然又是(只是?)后台工作,
基本上, 应该没有什么好担心的.
可是, 我就希望我能送上最大的努力啦! =)
回到读书计划,
读书, 是一定要的.
可是, 还是不能忘了要多运动.
每个星期日 (如果有的话), 跟AZ Gang去打羽球.
其实不是很明白为什么都只是打羽球! 哈哈.
还有, 希望可以一个星期游一次泳.
实际的计划, 到时候才策划吧!
反正这只是初步的概念,
真希望我能坚持下去!
不要希望, 是一定要啊!
-

兜兜转转,
终究无法放开.
究竟是那过于美妙,
还是是我傻傻期盼?
-

我, 严重词穷.
我亲爱的母语啊!!!

-久违了.

2010-07-24T15:34:00.000+08:00

距离上次更新, 也有一段时间了.
差点就把这给遗忘了, 是我太无情了? 还是渴望转变的态度过于强烈?
都罢, 至少, 现在我回来了.
这期间, 发生了不少的事情. 有大大小小的, 有深刻的, 有不愿回想起的.
真的很不情愿的提这四个字..
'不知不觉',
就七月了.
为什么会是'不知不觉', 我也不晓得.
明明每一天都是自己在过, 自己在经历着.
或许, 有一半以上的日子, 都没有值得纪念吧?

第四次的考试(小考),
在很没有准备的情况下度过了.
这次真的是没有什么准备,
还好成绩差强人意, 勉强在及格边缘. :)
反正, 考试都是能吹就吹. 除了, 即将(我不懂何时)来的大考和预试!
或许, 并不懂自己会得到什么, 相对得, 愿意付出的冲劲, 也少了?
其实有点后悔选择或硬硬接受了A Level.
若读了这到最后还是在这里读大学的话,
那, 读到那么辛苦来做什么?
还不如随便拿个foundation来读就算了. =/
每次越想到这, 就越想倒在床上不要动算了.
一天起床的力量, 完全给这想法重重的笼罩着.
这想法是最近才不懂从哪条无聊的神经线, 跳出来的.

写到这里,
好象突然顿住了.
不晓得好要写什么.
的确是有很多东西, 我想记录下来.
但是,
该从何写起呢?
算了, 以后才继续吧.

今天, 竟然随便地吐出了一篇垃圾文章..

厌倦了,
懊恼了.
讨厌等待,
因为
等待的背后,
总是一次又一次的失望.

答应.

2010-06-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

答应自己.
没有下一次了.
这是最后一次那么放纵自己.

要成熟了.
要好好想了.

我讨厌内疚的感觉. :x

距离.

2010-05-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

只觉得, 那距离, 好远好远.
像是紧紧握在手里的空气,
明明就握着了,
却感觉不到.
明明就在眼前,
却感受不到.

是那么的靠近,
却又那么遥远.
----------

最近,
我又变到很讨厌我的学院了.
拥挤的食堂,
拥挤的走廊,
拥挤的厕所,
我讨厌与不认识的人挤在一起.
在LRT上即使拥挤, 我还可以忍受.
但是在学校,

我实在是忍无可忍.
尤其是在这种大热天气.

食堂食物已经没有好吃了,
现在还要像沙丁鱼一样!

走到哪里, 都有人群挡路.
现在又没有的在讲堂上课.
一些课室又很小.
我的耳朵, 我的呼吸系统...

我要疯掉了.

发泄完了.
或许我应该知足.
可是, 这两天真的觉得很不舒服.
这样的环境, 让我觉得很懊恼.

还是早点去睡好.
----------

那距离,
始终无法跨越.
也许懂了,
永远永远都不会抵触的你的界限.

纵然在同一个方向,
同一个跑道,

也只是彼此的平行线.

中间,
隔着永远都不可能触摸的距离.

遗憾

2010-05-18T21:26:00.002+08:00

又正式回到学校上课了.
这个星期是第二个学期的开始.
考卷也发回来了 (还欠数学, 应该明天可以拿到了).
其余四科也考得尚可以, 至少有点出乎我预料之外.

我真的是不知道我自己考得怎样,
我真的是在考完试过后那个时刻觉得自己考到不是很好.
我又没有怎样怎样.. =/
而且我也没有考得真的很好, 也只是跟大家一样的分数.
有时侯, 真的觉得很无奈. 但又能如何?

回到今天,
真的有种严重的挫败感, 只差在没有找个洞跳下去.
也不知道为什么, 会那样.
顿时真的觉得自己失败到一个极点.
还好当时有个人(跟我同辆车去考车的人)陪我聊天,
至少陪我度过了等待另一个考试的时间.
真的很谢谢他. 可惜, 我提前离开了, 在我还没来得及去认识他.
回家路上, 真的不知道如何是好.
想着下一次的考试,
我还会像之前这样有信心吗?
难得我可以有信心的时候, 却给我泼了个这样大的冷水.
我还真不会面对失败.
我什么都不知道了.
回到家, 我就决定我要到学院去上课.
我不想一个人在家.
我不敢在空荡荡的房子里与自己对话.

我还可以笑着去考第二次吗?
我真的不知道了.
我觉得我需要时间,
可是我却不够时间.

很想, 很想, 离开这个烦人的城市.

逃到一个没有人知道的地方.

偷偷住下来.

只有,你我.

原来, 我只是会逃.

我要坚持.

今天, 发生了让我遗憾的两件事.

Somewhere, Sometimes, Someday.

2010-04-26T23:10:00.000+08:00

I seriously don't know why I'm here to update my blog, just feeling so desperate to TYPE, suddenly.

Next week would definitely be a harsh week for me!
Guess what?! It's my exam week, Mid-Term Exams!
I don't know how I'm going to maintain my scholarship,
as you can see, I'm still updating my blog here,
right at this moment? o.o"

(Monologue)
Stranger A: Then why you're still here? You should go to study now!
Danny: IDK why, I just don't feel like touching my notes or books now.
(in Danny's mind: It's already 10.30pm now, I'm going to bed soon.)
Stranger A: Why couldn't you just study? But typing (talking?) so much here?!
Danny: Lack of MIA (motivations, inspirations and aspirations).
Stranger A: BANG THE WALL PLEASE.
Danny: O.o
Stranger A: ...
(END)

Well, it sounds weird right?
Okay, I don't care.
I'm just boring, nothing to do,
but actually I have mountains of things to care.

I'm just lazy. ( lol, I just cannot have another reason to make the situation better. )

By the way,
college ended earlier today, because of the opening ceremony of the tiny little pond.
( yea, we think it did end early today.)
I went to Times Square with my college mates.
Thank you Alvin for fetching us,
although I know, he would fetch us because he's going back to TS!
(Wahahas.)
Hmm, I think it's really suffering for 6 guys to pack in a car. ( Okay, this is not the point. )

Had a bowling game after McDonald, and as expected, I was the last - lowest score -!
Bla bla bla,
I'm not so talented in games, whatever games... =/

Or maybe I can say that,
I'm just not so good in everything,
no matter what it is.

I thought fact should be like,
"when you lack of such an ability in doing this thing,
you would have done well in another thing".
But this theory doesn't apply, never to me.
Perhaps, I'm just not good enough,
in everything I'm trying to do. :(

I refused to blog with my poor English at first,
but I don't know what happened to my language tool.
I assume that the chinese input thingy is updated ( by itself? weird),
and,
I have to quickly accustom myself to it soon. ( maybe after exams.. :x )

-
Days will be better with a SMILE.
Hope my curly hair won't be so fastidious.
-
Good luck in Mid-Term.
-

Danny's wishes of the week (weeks) :
1) ~~Laziness.~~ Achieve well in Mid-Term, work harder!
2) ~~Snacks~~ Healthy body and life.
3) ~~Emo~~ Happy always. :)

-Sometimes, Somewhere and Someday-
there's always, at least, a delightful moment for us to remember, to hold it tight, and makes us mesmerised.

在梦里也好, 可以自在飞翔.

2010-04-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

原来, 这都不是真的.

依稀浮现在眼帘的碧云蓝天,
那含糊不清, 却让人熟悉不过的背影.
一小步一小步的靠近,
努力地克制情绪.
那惯性的浅浅一笑,
欲奔向前,
却清楚晓得

这只是一场清醒的美梦.
-

在上个星期日的电脑展,
我终于拥有了自己的一架相机了.
虽然并不是那种很贵的专业相机,
对我来说,
这已经足够了.
况且, 这是自己买的,
更多了一份淡淡的珍贵.

五月渐近.
这深深的意味着, 年中考试要来了.
我的生活,
似乎没有因此而忙碌起来.
再不努力的话,
恐怕奖学金都要被抽取了.
真不晓得我得接受多少封的警告信. =/
其实, 还真有点担心,
可是为何我还可以悠哉悠闲的上网, 更新部落格?

感谢森宏从老远寄来的明信片.
经过千山万水(o.0?),
终于送到了我的手中.
一些简单的问候语,
足以让我傻笑了几个小时.
(也许是字体的关系, 可是至少有比以前好了.)
他的生活应该很多姿多彩吧!
相信两个月后, 应该可以见到他.

最近觉得自己变得更加奇怪了.
-耐心减低, 耐力指数接近零.
-容易产生对人感到厌恶的情况.
-经常探讨自己的能力.
-比起以前, 更容易感到疲惫.
还是, 我本来都那样奇怪?
真希望能静静的躺着,
不要想任何东西.
难道大脑小脑, 都不用休息的吗?
抑或, 我连自己都开始厌倦自己了?

最近迷恋了自己早上搭轻快铁的感觉,
却也对放学过后搭车回家感到懊恼.
也许早上空气清新, 天气舒爽.
也许下午太阳高挂, 炎热窒息.
可是, 我有一种说不清楚的累.
我可以在人前保持着开心,
我可以在人前保持着沉默,
我可以很融入的玩,
然而,
我却无法面对背后的无奈.
开始混淆自己要表达的是什么,
还是算了.

明天会更好.
-
最近一直都在听的歌曲:
1) Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
2) Happy - Leona Lewis
3) Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart - Alicia Keys
4) 第几个100天 - 林俊杰
5) Run - Leona Lewis
6) 逆光 - 孙燕姿
7) My Hands - Leona Lewis
8) 加油 - 林俊杰
虽然部分, 或大部分都很旧了,
可是却无法, 自制自己重复聆听这些旋律.
-
在梦里也好, 可以自在飞翔.
可以想象,
那一切的美好.

遗憾,
梦, 永远是梦.
它不像理想可以去实践.
只是一厢情愿的相信,
希望梦可以实现.
-

我严重把presentation搞砸了.
丢脸到一个地步.

我期待的100天.

2010-04-12T22:08:00.003+08:00

我看透那唯美的景象,
只是一堆繁杂的条纹,
一些无法穿越的密码.
缠绕的迷雾,
始终揭不开.
-
又是另一个星期的开始,
感觉很像一直都在重复着.
但是生活其实也没有那样枯燥,

在学院总是围绕一些没完没了的话题.
我可怜渺小的命运总是给他人主宰,
从小学, 到中学, 到现在,
桃花运不错, 绯闻对象不断.
解释也累了, 反正说多错多,
终究还是笑一笑, 把它带过.
有点连累了婉仪的感觉,
找不到男朋友不要怪我啊(应该不会维持很久吧?)!
还是,
我应该感到开心?
因为我有新闻的价值?
开始觉得自己有点爱自言自语了. -.-

想不到转眼就四月了,
一年的四分之一过了!
不知道在中华的大家生活是否还好?
(好像很久没有见面这样, 明明三月假期才过了不到一个月)
我很想去唱K, 我很想大大声在食堂讲话,
我很想上课讲别人坏话, 我很想不用读书就可以考试,
我很怀念每次下个跟大家聚在一起的感觉,
我很想念中华的数学老师( 中华的数学老师是最好的).
但是,
我知道过去, 只是过去.
(有点历经沧桑的感觉, 可是事实还是得接受)
- 我也没有特地要提上篇blog提到的, 可是, 这里比上篇多了一点细节 -
还好, 在学院可以遇到不错的朋友,
不错幼稚成绩又好的朋友, 至少让我上课不用睡觉. :)

四月的到来,
意味着年中的考试就要到了.
我一定要意思意思发奋一下,
不然就会白白浪费了奖学金.
我才不要发生失去奖学金这样丢脸的事情! ><
(可是, 懂我的人都晓得, 我总是讲一套, 做一套.)
在这里的考试,
真的考到有烂到一个程度.
严格来讲, 平均四个考试, 我只有一科或两科及格!
还是撞墙算了.

上个星期出席了林俊杰的签唱会,
真的是太棒了!
太久没有听他现场唱歌了,
真的是太震撼人心了!
当天他唱了三首歌曲,
分别有<加油>, <背对背拥抱>和<第几个100天>.
不懂哪里油然而生的情绪波动,
我竟然在他唱每首歌的时候, 都有种想哭的冲动. =/
我并没有很熟悉这张专辑的每个旋律, 每个词句.
可是, 我真的很喜欢这张专辑.

好久没有体会到那种"感动到要哭"的感觉,
有点侮辱了我的人格造诣.
我该不会变得冷淡了吧?
可是, 我觉得我有一点变了.
我不像那以前的我, 却无法定义现在的我是好还是坏.
这种改变, 让我自己也觉得很奇怪.
还是, 其实我没有变?
只是附和着环境, 不同的环境, 拥有不同的自己?
还是不要想到那样复杂.

唯一没变的是,
我依然向往, 到海边, 轻松的漫步.
我依旧期盼自在飘逸的生活.
多希望依偎在海里, 任凭风拍打我的脸颊,
我只想静静的, 静静的躺着.
-

这一年的首个100天,
曾让我挣扎, 曾让我幸喜.
曾让我忧愁, 曾让我缅怀.
曾让我彷徨, 曾让我依赖.

我会期待接下来的100天. =)

备忘录:
1) 多休息, 早点睡觉. 我需要一个健康的生活态度和习惯.
2) 尝试抽点时间读书. 对, 是尝试.
3) Pikom Pc Fair @ KLCC. 相机? 还是一堆小说?
4) 学好驾车.
5) 期待方大同演唱会的同时, 期待林俊杰的演唱会消息.
6) 存钱省钱, 要买很多很多东西.
7) 看开点.

-我久违, 并偶尔引以为傲的华文, 应该没有退步到一个无法想像的境界吧?-

- 我以为, 我们可以永远牵着彼此的手, 一直走下去 - <一封迟来的信> 邓秀茵
(我下一本看的红蜻蜓出版社的小说. 哈哈.)

我以为,
我们可以单纯牵着彼此的回忆,
让美好浮现于眼前.
但是现实却残酷的清醒,
把我们的手,
逐渐拆离.
我以为,
我们可以永远牵着彼此的手,
度过我们认为最纯真的友谊.

Another Weekend!

2010-04-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

It has been ages (exaggeratedly) since my last update,
no other reasons, obviously, i'm just being too lazy!
as lazy as always. ._.
I think I should update my blog in chinese (mandarin?), but I'm (again) too lazy to key in those hanyupinyin and search the words one by one.
It's really a hardship for a guy who wears specs!

Nothing so special about recent life...
Swing back to few weeks before... (Doraemon's Time Capsule!)
I'm studying in TARC,
I tried to persuade my parents to allow me to leave there
( but after getting my bad SPM result, I know there's no hope),
and now,
I will be staying there until I complete my A level study.
TARC is not that terrible actually, despite of some particular lecturers,
things here are going not too bad.
The college is big enough, a new high tech built IT center (hmm?), satisfactory facilities,
Olympic-sized swimming pool ( the most gorgeous part), and, more to be found out soon. =)
I'm trying to change the ways I think,
at least, better than non-stop complaining about this and that.
I truly believe that every colleges has both merits and shortcomings!
Okay, I'm feeling much more better now, and hope this feeling will maintain until that day.
By the way, the only three words I can use to describe A Level are
Super Damn Tough!
I can never relate the exam questions to what I have studied. GOSH!
My poor understanding skill and low English proficiency even make the situation worse. :x
Hmm.. maybe I should work hard from now onwards?
(Wow, I have this impressive thought every year, but you can't imagine how i refuse it.)
I have been so dumb and lazy for years.
Frankly, I never really study ( in a proper way) since I was Form 2!
Homework not done, playing phone or sleeping in class, watching dramas during exams..
(Well, I don't think my awesome parents will view my blog, and I wonder, do they know what blog is? o.0)
Anyway, I don't think I will really work that hard though. (too many excuses and grievances can be created.)
BUT I will try to complete my homework and study seriously for exams, yeah, I will TRY!
Ehhs, we should enjoy our lives!
Furthermore, I'm those kind of people who are seeking for peace! - My slogan: Peace Please -
(别人笑我太疯癫, 我笑他人看不穿. Lol.)
Too bad I don't have a smart brain. :) Maybe I would be the next 唐伯虎 in 21st century. WAHAHA.
(duhhs! too much dramas again!)

Back to college life..
College life isn't so unacceptable after all, but I miss my Chong Hwa lifestyle very much!
I can clearly remember what we normally do in class, the way we talk, the way we act like..
Please! I'm still too young to be an adult!
I want to be childish like what I used to be. People there are way too mature! (hmm, except for some o.0 )
No worry, I won't be isolated (hopefully). Hehes.

A bit exhausted today.
Everyday two hours of LRT and bus to and fro between my house and TARC is extremely tiring.

NEVERMIND, because...
I'm going for my first driving lesson tomorrow! Bless me please :)

Aims for the next week:
1) Try to speak proper English. I don't want Manglish! or broken English.
2) Try to study hard for Pure Maths* and Accounting.
* I just dropped Law and changed to Maths class. AND NOW, I have exam. ><
3) Be happy! Be optimistic.
4) JJ's promo tour in Sungei Wang!
5) Sleep earlier, rest more. :)

农历新年!

2010-02-22T21:13:00.000+08:00

在还未开始之前, 我比较想说的是, 今年的我不适宜赌博.
赌了几天, 几天都输了十多块..
不过接下来也应该没有什么机会赌了吧!

整个新年给我的感觉就除了很忙,
还是很忙!
那一个星期,
根本就不像假期.
来简单讲解一下,

年三十晚--> 亲戚们来我家吃团圆饭!
初一        --> 到大伯家, 有舞狮, 然后就聚一聚咯!
初二        --> 亲戚们到我家来拜年, 然后去一些亲戚家拜年
初三        --> 一早6点回妈妈的家乡, 爸爸这边的亲戚下午加入我们, 然后下午他们心血来潮地提议要去金马伦, 回到家凌晨3点, 5点才睡!
初四        --> 7点起床, 因为要去森宏的家, 森宏亲自下厨! 哈哈, 然后晚上"惊喜式"的去送他飞机.
初五        --> 到midvalley和素蓉, 美琪, 荣杰, 智开和诗慧唱K! 然后晚上到亲戚家吃晚餐, 喝了很多红酒.
初六        --> 前天很晚才睡, 然后又要早早来到子杰家拜年! 今年给足面子他了! 哈哈!
初七        --> 到诗妍家拜年! 本来要就看戏的, 就牺牲一下咯! 哈哈! 晚上又去亲戚家!
初八        --> 下午到亲戚家, 本来还以为留在家的, 怎样知道被妈妈拉出去了! 哈哈! 晚上准备拜天空咯...! 今年的烟花, 比去年的多.

现在整个心情还在农历新年这样,
一点上课的感觉也没有,
一定要好好调适过来.

说真的, 在机场的时候,
真的一点舍不得的感觉也没有.
真的很奇怪. 哈哈!
或许他又没有经常打给我问班上的东西 :P
而且我上了学院也很少跟他见面,
所以...
也就没有什么感觉啦.
不过,
我也会想念他的...
如果我得空的话. 哈哈!

一切顺利. :)

Christina Aguilera. :)
waiting for her new album, perhaps, will be released in this summer.
the best vocalist forever. x)

好笑.

2010-02-03T23:51:00.000+08:00

最近,
无法承担压力.
无法面对挫折.
无法相信自己.
每当面对任何困难,
总没有想过要去面对.
只是逃避, 一味儿地不想面对.
从上班第一天就辞职,
然后匆忙地为自己报名读书,
到我搬去外面住不到一个月又搬回家..
真的不懂,
发生了什么事.

我是这样的吗?
这是我吗?
不晓得.
或许,
原本的我都是这样吧?
何必急着为自己辩解?

好笑.

____________________

每一次当我伤心的时候,
每一次感觉无助的时候,
每一次面对挫折的时候,

总会回到去那段影片.

那段,
总能让我偷偷拭泪的影片.

二月的第一天.

2010-02-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

无论什么时候,
要去定义一个人与另一个人的关系,
一切总会变得很复杂.

星期三,
与振竤, 振粦和智开去吃晚餐,
当作欢送振竤回纽西兰.
之后还一时兴起去唱K.
十八岁的记忆,
就应该要有点不一样.
因为,
总有太多无法预测的事情.
也不晓得,
何时才可以如此轻狂.

星期五,
和勇文, 振粦还有...一个人(不是很清楚他的名)
到Times Square去看戏.
原因: 原本没有这样早回去纽西兰的振粦, 突然星期六要回去了.
本来还打算迟点去找他的,
怎样知道这样快就要回了.
希望他们两个一切顺利!
还有不久的以后可以再见面.

星期六,
和waiye gang出去.
错过了新春庙会, 有点想念好久不见的大家.
又是我们的惯例活动-- 唱K.
可惜诗妍和韦辰都无法出席,
不然就完美了.
还有不到半个月的时间,
森宏要去澳洲了.
突然间, 好像有很多很多的话想说,
可是, 究竟要如何?

想不到,
二月这样快就到来了.
一个月,
就这样匆匆忙忙地过去了.

在学院,
应该还可以算是混到不错吧..
至少没有一个人下课了.
可是,
还是有种很莫名的感觉.
虽然班上同学都还不错...
就个人感觉吧..!
目前的课业还追得上,
可是总觉得自己好像很笨这样.
其他人好像很厉害这样,
自己就好像时常不在状况内.
真的是笨到一个极点.
不管老师问问题还是怎样,
都有人可以很快回答,
不然就会问很多问题,
问到都不懂他们问什么.

我真的需要进修我的华人式英文了.
觉得讲英文好像把自己的脸丢到地上去贱踩.
天啊.

星期三要考试了,
economics 和law.
第一次考试应该不会很难的吧?
并没有很认真地开始读.. =/
明天要加油了.

我还以为我可以很平静地面对一切.
我还以为我可以持续地若无其事.
原来,
从始至终,
都是那样.

新年要来了.

搬..... 房?

2010-01-16T18:20:00.000+08:00

由于我家离TARC实在有一定的距离,
而搭车回家又很奔波,
爸爸每次来回载我又很麻烦,
所以我要搬到学校附近去住了!
住在setapak, wangsa maju和melawati的朋友记得叫我去喝茶,
可是...
我没有钱. :D
顺便介绍我到底哪里有好吃的? =)

第一次要搬到外面去住.
感觉究竟是如何的呢?
每天要吃外面的食物..
希望附近的东西都不会太难吃,
这样我就会满足了.
只是要一些可以满足食欲的食物,
应该没有问题的吧?
不过, 本人却给父母看衰,
讲我一定会不习惯的,
然后又讲我这样挑剔,
一定讲这个讲那个.
其实,
我真的不懂我挑剔在哪里?
只是有一点点点的要求罢了.

接下来的几个晚上应该都不能上网.
不过会在学校争取时间上网的.
如果可以的话..

我要,
要融入生活!
我班的人还以为我很安静呢? -.-"

希望一切安好.
祈求着,
也只能这样.

开课.

2010-01-13T18:49:00.001+08:00

终于开始上课了.
学院生活也没有想象中那样轻松吧?
对于A-Level的感觉真的不是很好..
好像很难吧? 应该是真的很难. =/
一开始都没有打算要拿这项课程的..
辗转反侧, 在一翻垂死挣扎后,
被强迫到TARC去读A-Level..
虽然说学院生活是很自在啦, 可是就觉得感觉很不对..
或许是我还没适应? 还没有找到一个可以让我好好面对的原因?
平时要我讲下英文, 听下英文, 也没有问题, 而且还很愿意呢..
可是, 一直要使用英文交谈 ( 虽然我也没有讲很多话啦),
就很不习惯啦..
好象找不到在中华那种亲切感..
甚至觉得周围的人都很冷淡.. ><
一个小时又一个小时的课程都没有讲话哦..
不要怀疑, 因为都自己一个人坐 -.-
都不晓得要一个人下课下到多久..?
一班才那十几个人, 那边一组都认识的, 另一边一组又认识彼此的,
要怎样才能够认识啊?
突然觉得自己很搞笑..
适应能力太差了吧?
不熟悉的语言, 不熟悉的环境, 发挥不了在中华的本色?
看来我应该可以..好好地读书了?
搞自闭, 努力学习! -.-
真的太感谢婉仪了 T.T 在那边唯一的好朋友..
还有一些中华理科的..
可是.. 我跟大家都不同时间 =/
讲到上课..
有些讲师的确是不错的..
我就把A Level一年半的终身, 交个了他们..
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一开始一直考虑要拿哪一科..
最后选了四科主要的科目..
Business Studies, Economics, Accounting 和 Law..
加一个compulsory subject, General Paper..
但是最后那个可是在第个三学期取消的..
所以星期一到星期五, 每天只有一个小时休息..
一去到就上课上到放学..
最庆幸的就是那边的电脑室..
多电脑, 又不会很慢..
load facebook的游戏很快 =/
虽然那边有很多设施..
可是都好象没有时间可以享受的..
图书馆好像有四层.. 很大..
可是好象没有故事书的.? 都是一些参考书..

希望可以快点适应..
可能要搬去学校附近住..
不懂要怎样...
真的是离我家很远很远的..

我要融入生活!
不然, 真的会得忧郁症. -.-

努力!

2010-01-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

撇开中华的高三朋友不说, 原来很多人都开始他们的学院课程了.
空虚的我, 突然有点后悔这样迟才开课. 如韦辰所说的, 真的有点像翘课的感觉.
不过我绝对不会让时间白白流失.
这个星期四我要开工咯~ 大家以后要叫我何老师!
教导学生应该很困难吧? 没有尝试过..
暂时打算是要做到二月尾, 三月才看要不要继续咯.
感觉上还蛮有挑战性的, 希望可以胜任并可以得到很多很多的经验, 充实人生!

虽然今天看了alvin and the chipmunks 2, 但是还是磨灭不了我对avatar的钟爱.
尤其是当我知道原来它的主题曲是由Leona Lewis所演唱的时候.
真的很欣赏她的歌曲, 她的现场演唱更更更棒!
希望可以再看一次avatar. :)
that's really a great movie, at least, to me.

坦白说, 真的很想念在上课的朋友们.
有种无时无刻都想去了解他们的冲动.
希望这过渡期能尽快结束.
想到以前我时常到别班去玩, 下课与大家一起用餐.. 等等的过去,
严重的失落感侵我而来.
希望在忙碌后, 就不会再想那么多了.

但愿,
一切顺利.

your life shines the way into paradise, so i offer my life as a sacrifice.
-Avatar Theme Song, I See You, by Leona Lewis.

另一个开始.

2010-01-01T23:40:00.001+08:00

x某 :"进杰, 为什么你又开多一个新的blog的?"
进杰:"没有啦, 我希望可以分开两个blog."
x某 :"什么意思哦? 这样都好分? 分这样多来做什么?"
进杰:"先听我说, 一个是用来写看不懂的, 而另一个是用来记录生活上的一些故事, 启示."
x某 :"没事找事来做."
进杰:" =) "

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我相信, 只要坚持下去, 一切都不会结束. :)
18岁, 2010年的倒数, Waiye Gang 把这样重要的一次送给了 The Curve!
说实在的, 真的好久好久没有这样疯狂了.
除了姓刘名韦辰那位老老先生缺席以外, 其他人都到了! ( 虽然都知道了, 可是还是有种想列一下的冲动, 有顾问森宏, 主席素蓉, 腼腆的副主席进杰, 佳倚, 诗妍, 思敏, 美琪, 彦如, 伟权和振竤! 排名不分先后.)
首先, 要感激森宏的父母在如此神圣的一天, 做了我们两次的司机, 真的谢谢哦! 不然我们也不可能可以玩得那么尽心. 可是, 归根究底, 都是Waiye Gang的团员不怎么争气, 没有一个人已经完全地学会驾车, 并拥有驾照. =P
当天大约7pm到了The Curve, 不懂为何地选择了到Italiannies去吃晚餐. 本来大家都很兴奋的, 可是给那里可恶的店员破坏了气氛. :D 由于我们未满18 (明明还有几个小时就18了), 所以9pm我们就必须离开. 在那里好象等着被赶这样, 结果到最后, 肚子没有1/4的饱, 却用了1/4的钱!
然后我们的第二站, Baskin Robbins! -"31% discount on 31st"- 结果就吃了点ice cream, 吹了很多的水, 可是有时候, 时间还是很慢一下...
所以我们又到了第三站, A&W! 我们不停地穿梭在The Curve, Ikano和Ikea之间, 有累到....一个爆点. 不过一直拍照也很爽一下!
接近倒数的时候, 现场简直就是人潮汹涌, 但是, 烟民的数量也不错多一下, 臭到..
疯狂的在玻璃板上写字, 在地上写上"18"然后疯狂地拍照...
不久后, 就接近倒数了! 真的有high到~ 那边的烟火好美啊.. 可惜, 最美丽的被Ikea的牌挡住了我们的视线!
一切就这样划下完美地落幕. =) 中间种种细节, 也不想多写, 只是许多美好的事情, 一定会永远地留在我心里.

我的描写文真的十分糟糕...
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Waiye Gang, 谢谢你们陪我走了4年的中华旅途.
不懂为何总是在某种时候会有千万交错的情绪.
还以为不会这样快发生的事情, 终究也发生了. 难免舍不得, 却不得不坦然面对.
在一起时的欢笑, 在一起时的打打闹闹, 偶尔发生的争执, 偶然互相配合的默契, 是多么的难忘.

-有点久没有写blog了, 感觉上, 文字和句子都有点问题, 但是我要表达的, 也仅是简单的东西.-
我爱Waiye Gang! 我爱大家. 谢谢森宏, 素蓉, 佳倚, 诗妍, 思敏, 美琪, 彦如, 韦辰, 伟权和振竤! 你们永远都会占有我最美好的回忆.

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人生, 是一张白纸.
谢谢你们, 都为我留下了各种缤纷色彩.
与你们的邂逅, 是我永远的荣耀.

请保佑我, 希望我可以完成一个最新的Waiye Gang video. :)

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这, 只是开始.